Aa
I posted on Risk forum was told had no risk Male to male oral sex
Like i said, i posted in the HIV risk preventioin forum. My situation was about three months ago and i had a brief encounter with a guy that was good friend of mine (btw, im a 28 year old male) and we had decided to fool around, both of us bi curious and felt safe with each other. I was tested over a year ago and came back free and clear of all STD's, STI's, HIV, yadda yadda yadda. My friend when I asked of STD's said he was clean (I don't know when the last time he had sex with someone, or been to the doctor but hey, he was my friend so i trusted him) but apparently something in the back of my mind wanted to be safe, maybe the fact that I have a great and wonderful gf who we have a monagamus relationship, minus this what im talking about. Anyways, I started masturbating him and then he decided to try jerking me off. Well i decided to get a littly ballsy and i kinda wanted to try sucking. But something in the pack of my head, paranioa, or something i ain't sure, so i decided some kind of protection, we had no condoms, but i found a small plastic bag and i checked for holes and put it over his penis. I only licked the head and put it in my mouth a couple of times not many really because honestly as soon as i did it i felt guilty and disgusting. plus a knock came at the door, but before answering I jerked myself to orgasm and well he didn't *** nor did he have pre *** that i was aware of....this was three months ago. EVERY since thing i can't stop thinking about it, wondering, even after i read the prevention forum and realized that was no risk with oral. I keep freaking out, im afraid to have sex with my girlfriend ---i can't stop checking my lymph nodes, feeling for a fever, freaking out over my girlfriends ear infection and sinus infection like a month after i did my indiscretion. I don't know what to do. Teak and Lizzie Lou and some other feller told me that I had no risk, i've seen where the doctors said the same thing with cases exactly like mine. I don't know what to do, i just want a normal life....please...help...is it paranoia? guilt? worried well? Help please
There are NO symptoms that are diagnostic of HIV. Stop trying to figure out your status by what is going on with your body and have an HIV test. If that is your only possible risk, the test will be negative and will clear this event from your mind.
No more comments please. Feel free to report the results of an HIV test, otherwise any additional posts will be deleted without comment.
No more comments please. Feel free to report the results of an HIV test, otherwise any additional posts will be deleted without comment.
thank you. One last thing, i realized now that the tongue is white and pink naturally sinsus drainage can cause the film. I was just scratching my neck and felt a lump and FREAKING out...i can't tell if its a node or what. because when i touch it, i feel it pulsing...but i should be able to feel stiffness in it? My alleriges have been going ---I mean is it nothing? freaking out? and with that HIV we talked about ---Im not 100% sure that plastic bag didn't have any holes in it. Im sorry for being such a bother....I just need some for advice...please...and I do have an effed up wisdom tooth on the left side where I felt the stiffness thingy
Having thrush is not a diagnostic criteria of HIV infection and it sounds like you don't have it anyway. You are indeed "freakin' out for nothing".
UPDATE: My doctor just looked at me funny when I told him what i did, so im assuming I had nothing to worry about and I've been doing alot better...But yesterday i've noticed my tongue is a little white and pink. I mean thats normal right? I mean it ain't nothing to worry about? Thrush is thick and like flour right? Am i freakin' out for nothing? btw im starting to wonder if im a hypochondriac...please help...
You clearly have an over-inflated fear of HIV. People seem to get the impression that it is easy for someone to catch HIV as it is to catch chlamydia- that is not the case. And this time you did absolutely nothing to put yourself at risk- plastic does not transmit HIV.
You have nothing to fear by taking a test. The test will be negative like it was the last time. HIV is not a punishment handed out to people who act on their sexual impulses. You have to actually be exposed to it to catch it. Please read the opening thread on the biological reasons why no risk means no risk. And it doesn't cause sinus/ear/upper respiratory infections either- no STD does that.
You have nothing to fear by taking a test. The test will be negative like it was the last time. HIV is not a punishment handed out to people who act on their sexual impulses. You have to actually be exposed to it to catch it. Please read the opening thread on the biological reasons why no risk means no risk. And it doesn't cause sinus/ear/upper respiratory infections either- no STD does that.
because I am terrified that it will come back with what im afraid of honestly.....come to think about it, i've had this fear before with an ex gf of mine...I had slept with another girl when we had temp. broke up (as in slept, vaginal and anal both unprotected) and i withheld sex for months -----got tested finally and then was shown to be negative --but still had nerves about it and then finally calmed down...and then after 6 months with my new girl my friend and i mutually masturbate/slight oral by me....and im in the same boat....again...and something tells me that i don't need to be tested that my doctor will tell me not to worry but what freaks me out? she has had a sinus infection, an ear infection and now shes getting all sniffly again (all had multiple weeks between them minus the ear/sinus infection that was two weeks apart) and its freaking me out.....i dunno
The reality of the situation, if I understand it correctly, is that you licked/sucked a plastic bag (even though it happened to cover your friend's penis). Therefore, you could not have been exposed to anything. HIV cannot penetrate latex, plastic, or any other synthetic polymer that I am aware of. And even if oral sex is unprotected, there has never been a confirmed case of anybody catching HIV that way, which is why all the doctors on this forum consider the risk to be, at best, neglible.
You seem to understand this intellectually, but you are somehow confusing your emotional reaction to the situation with its 'risk' to you. If you felt "guilty and disgusting" immediately after the experimentation, it is likely that you still do. Guilt (or internal conflict?) can be driving much of your anxiety and fears, but I'm not in a position to really help with that.
It certainly doesn't make sense for you to continue to doubt your status, withhold sex with your girlfriend, and try to gauge your and your girlfriend's HIV status based on symptoms, which are meaningless. Why not have an HIV test to prove to yourself that you did not get infected? Even though there was no risk, many people in your situation have troubling believing it until they see solid proof that they are HIV negative. The test result will be negative and will help you put this behind you.
You seem to understand this intellectually, but you are somehow confusing your emotional reaction to the situation with its 'risk' to you. If you felt "guilty and disgusting" immediately after the experimentation, it is likely that you still do. Guilt (or internal conflict?) can be driving much of your anxiety and fears, but I'm not in a position to really help with that.
It certainly doesn't make sense for you to continue to doubt your status, withhold sex with your girlfriend, and try to gauge your and your girlfriend's HIV status based on symptoms, which are meaningless. Why not have an HIV test to prove to yourself that you did not get infected? Even though there was no risk, many people in your situation have troubling believing it until they see solid proof that they are HIV negative. The test result will be negative and will help you put this behind you.
You must join this user group in order to participate in this discussion.
You are reading content posted in the HIV Anxiety Support Group
A list of national and international resources and hotlines to help connect you to needed health and medical services.
Herpes sores blister, then burst, scab and heal.
Herpes spreads by oral, vaginal and anal sex.
STIs are the most common cause of genital sores.
Condoms are the most effective way to prevent HIV and STDs.
PrEP is used by people with high risk to prevent HIV infection.
