Like i said, i posted in the HIV risk preventioin forum. My situation was about three months ago and i had a brief encounter with a guy that was good friend of mine (btw, im a 28 year old male) and we had decided to fool around, both of us bi curious and felt safe with each other. I was tested over a year ago and came back free and clear of all STD's, STI's, HIV, yadda yadda yadda. My friend when I asked of STD's said he was clean (I don't know when the last time he had sex with someone, or been to the doctor but hey, he was my friend so i trusted him) but apparently something in the back of my mind wanted to be safe, maybe the fact that I have a great and wonderful gf who we have a monagamus relationship, minus this what im talking about. Anyways, I started masturbating him and then he decided to try jerking me off. Well i decided to get a littly ballsy and i kinda wanted to try sucking. But something in the pack of my head, paranioa, or something i ain't sure, so i decided some kind of protection, we had no condoms, but i found a small plastic bag and i checked for holes and put it over his penis. I only licked the head and put it in my mouth a couple of times not many really because honestly as soon as i did it i felt guilty and disgusting. plus a knock came at the door, but before answering I jerked myself to orgasm and well he didn't *** nor did he have pre *** that i was aware of....this was three months ago. EVERY since thing i can't stop thinking about it, wondering, even after i read the prevention forum and realized that was no risk with oral. I keep freaking out, im afraid to have sex with my girlfriend ---i can't stop checking my lymph nodes, feeling for a fever, freaking out over my girlfriends ear infection and sinus infection like a month after i did my indiscretion. I don't know what to do. Teak and Lizzie Lou and some other feller told me that I had no risk, i've seen where the doctors said the same thing with cases exactly like mine. I don't know what to do, i just want a normal life....please...help...is it paranoia? guilt? worried well? Help please