I have horrible anxiety..and I had traces of OCD, but after my best friend got sick, my OCD started flaring up and its hard to manage now..first I have OCD with checking locks, things that could start fires..I try to talk myself out of it, and right away an image of something horrible happening to my family pops into my mind and I feel forced to do it, like Im possibly harming them if I dont..I realize how ridiculous this is. Also, if Im doing anything, like texting for example, and anything to do with death pops into my mind..I have to redo what I was doing, replaced with a POSITIVE thought, and I drive myself CRAZY..my best friend is so much better now, but my OCD only gets worse. PLEASE tell me how I can manage this better? Its just not possible for me to see a therapist etc, and Im too embarrassed to tell ANYONE what Im going through..its awful. Im young, I dont want to spend my life this way..thank you in advance