Thanks I am feeling better!
And I'M telling you I've tried the numbing cream and it DOESN'T WORK!!! I got a prescription for it hoping it would make it easier for me when I had to get an IV. NOPE!! It still hurt like crazy, I still had severe pain when they stuck me, and I am telling you that cream is bogus and doesn't work AT ALL!
You're being totally irrational. I wish it didn't hurt, I wish I didn't feel it. I wish you were right that it was possible not to feel it. But I'm telling you that in all my years of getting stuck by doctors, I have felt it EVERY time, even with that worthless numbing cream. So quit freaking out about something that is completely false.
Thanks. I will read the articles you provided. I think once I get tested and receive negative result, my OCD will be better. I am considering the self-treatment. Thanks Anyway!
The idea is to show you how absurd and unlikely it is that this happened. You could also get struck by lightening or a meteor. You cannot satisfy the OCD. Did you read the articles? Are you willing to have therapy to challenge your distorted belief?
Carol, the points you shared is make me a little bit scary, escpically the NUMBING CREAM.
The only thing I was relieved from this whole thing is that the pain existance when needle stabbing. But now you mentioned there is a thing called numbing cream.
Oh God, I have no idea how to live for another 3 weeks before test.
It is possible that someone with HIV stabbed you.
Now remember there are not that many folks out there with it, so it would be kind of hard to know someone with this, and also he would have had to find you. He obviously carries some sort of numbing cream so that you don't feel the prick first. Perhaps he also carries some type of amnesia med so that you can't remember if it happened or not. So yes, it is possible that this actually happened, and to get well from your obsessions, you will have to come to the point where you say, maybe it happened, and maybe it didn't. Guess I'll never know. Sounds easier than it is, but get therapy (good therapy, not just talking therapy), and face this a little at a time. If there are no therapists, I suggest you order and read, "The OCD Workbook", by Bruce Hyman and Cherry Pedrick.
Did you read the articles? Have you gone for therapy? Are you on meds? What have you done for this?
What I am afriad of what if the man who masterbates with me may stab the HIV needle to me.
And I can't help to think about all time time...
I'm really not sure what you are talking about, but any obsessive thoughts only worsen when you ask for reassurance. It reinforces in your brain that you cannot tolerate the uncertainty of not knowing something for sure.
http://www.ocdla.com/blog/reassurance-seeking-ocd-anxiety-597
http://************.com/lib/ocd-and-the-need-for-reassurance/00015835
http://www.wsps.info/index.php?catid=0:&id=82:ten-things-you-need-to-know-to-overcome-ocd&option=com_content&view=article
WHAT causes my intense fear of needles? The PAIN from getting stuck with the needle! If it didn't hurt, if I couldn't feel it, then I would not have this fear. But I know for a 100% fact that, regardless of whether they use that numbing cream (which does not work!) I know when they shove that needle in my arm, I'm going to feel it and it's going to hurt!
So in answer to your question, speaking from a long experience, I can tell you that it's not possible to get stuck with a needle and not feel it. If it was, I would gladly willingly get blood tests without fear and not panic before getting an IV. But I can tell you without any doubt that I've never been stuck without it hurting! So yes, you would know someone stuck you and you would feel pain, that is a guarantee.