So I described briefly what it feels like to a friend who was diagnosed with OCD, ADHD, Anxiety and Depression clinically, and they said that it sounded more like Tourettes, but I'm unsure?
Simply put, it's a feeling that never stops, but always changes, it's sometimes indistinguishable from an actual physical "itch" - sometimes it's not even on me. The wall on the other side of the room might be "itchy" and I need to go and scratch it, but no, it doesn't need to be touched to be satisfied, I have to scratch at it with my eyes. From seeing the wall of my nose from my right eye as I turn my head to the right while looking at the wall, or object, I feel the wall of my nose satisfying the itch of the wall. This sounds utterly insane, I know - that's why I'm here; to ask what the umbrella is wrong with me. Also I HAVE to contract, stretch, extend, touch, bite, "eye-scratch" random parts of my body, usually in a pattern that I haven't worked out yet, nevertheless it feels like a pattern. Looking in a mirror is horrifically complex, in that now I have two of me with itches I can feel on both but I don't know which one to scratch to satisfy. Sometimes I breakdown into a panic attack if I resist or can't satisfy it. I just noticed as I am typing this now, I have to type letters a certain amount of time without it being an equal amount of times to that of the backspace and I have to double tap the caps lock key an unknown amount of times and sometimes I might accidentally do it too many times and get depressed at it.
Someone sum this up by telling me that I belong in a mental ward. :)
Did I mention that on the rare occasion, I have hallucinations of people walking behind me, people watching me sleep ect, though it's not completely vivid, so I know when it's happening. So instead of being afraid of them, I literally ball my eyes out laughing while trying to touch them to no avail. It's a bit like a dream, but I'm awake... ok, now you can tell me to check into a mental ward. ^_^