Looking for any advice I can get- I have very bad OCD and I used to have awful compulsions, usually the typical stuff like hand washing. After CBT that stopped, and I am no longer afraid of public toilet seats and whatnot. However I am now obsessed with hepatitis C and while I no longer obsessively hand-wash or count to certain numbers like I used to, I just think about hep c ALL DAY and think about all the times in my life when I might have gotten it from a mani-pedi or dentist. I would get tested, but due to the common nature of false positives, and my old therapist telling me it's unwise at the moment, I'm going to lay off for the mean time. If I get tested for this I will probably start obsessing over a different disease.
My main fear is that my boyfriend will leave me if I have hep c, even though he has said he wouldn't numerous times. My question is, what can I actually do to self-therapize, if I don't really have compulsions other than asking and googling? Should I just stop vocalizing my anxiety, and instead keep it to myself while distracting myself? It was easier to self-treat when I had a hand washing problem. Has anyone overcome this type of anxiety before? Thanks!