Hi guys! Ive been obsessed with HIV since childhood, but now it's worse than ever..little timeline: In November 2014 had a girlfriend whom I did cunnilingus 2 times, was super worried after, passed a rapid test in December 2015-negative..since then had sex couple times with another girl, ALWAYS protected, but afraid that since we slept in one bed that I may had "sexsomnia" (this thing really exists, it's like sleepwalking-look it up lol https://vanwinkles.com/what-is-sexsomnia ), so yeah and during this episode of "sexsomnia" to not put on the condom, and not remember it in the morning (especially since one of the times I was really drunk, but still remembered everything). Like I slept in pants most of the time (one time in boxers) and on my side on the bed, and when I was waking up the pants were still on me and I was on the same side of the bed. Also afraid that her public hair may have poked micro holes in condoms ; So, do you guys think that OCD is my real problem? Like I want to go and get a test but am super like super anxious..
Thanks!