I know how you feel.....but they're just thoughts. You haven't acted on them. I fear that I actually HAVE acted on them and just don't remember! Then my mind starts making up scenarios where I have acted on them and I don't know what is real and what's just in my mind anymore! This is such a horrible disease.
But I guess it is comforting to know I'm not alone....I just wish I could get 'proof' that nothing happened....
Absolutely! I feel awful about it, but I constantly find myself thinking about sleeping with someone other than my spouse, even though I generally think we have an ok relationship overall. Even though there is only one instance, just over a year ago, that could remotely be considered cheating, and I dont think it really counts; Im always thinking about it.
Worse, we are trying to get pregnant, and not having much luck, and I find myself fantasizing about sleeping with another person so that I can get pregnant. Then I feel guilty just because I was thinking about it, and I wonder if he knows.
YES! All the time! It's killing me.....actually right now I'm obsessing that maybe my husband isn't my babies father....I'm 4 months pregnant, and I know I haven't ever slept with anyone else, but my mind keeps telling me "what if you don't remember, and this is someone else's baby"! I feel sick about it.