whats wrong

[sponge4]

hello my name is matthew welch and i think i have a form of OCD. i am really worried about it and need to talk to someone about the horrible thoughts i keep having. i have read your article on violent thoughs and can relate to it. it has only started to appear in my head. i am not a violent person and have no record of violence in my life at all.

i keep haveing thoughts of harming people by thinking about punching them for no reason at all. it is making me scared to go anywere because i constantly have these thoughs while talking to people. i need to talk to someone. i need your help. violent acts towards people. i feel like i have to performe them but i really dnt want to. i cant stop the thoughts. i wake up with them in my head. i fear i will snap one day something in my head is telling me to. i wont and i keep telling myself this but the urges is to strong. i keep haveing to sit on or hide my hands. this dosnt really help. please can you help me. i want these thoughs to go away. i dnt know how to make this happen. please can anyone help me.



thank you

Matthew Welch

[books33]

ya, that's a tough one. Just try to remember who you are. You know deep down you are a good person and would never do these things. try to focus on who you really are, and maybe those thoughts can replace the ocd thoughts. I had similar violent and aggressive thoughts for about a year of my life, and was on heavy medication after I was diagnosed w/ OCD, but now I am mostly free of them. I have them once in a blue moon, maybe 2-3 times per week at the most. They go away everyday, and mostly it's checking to make sure the thoughts are gone. And obviously, when you "check" if an ocd thought is there, the thought is already there, because you're checking for it.

Just don't be hard on yourself and realize these are irrational thoughts. A psychiatrist can help you through it.

[Judy1961]

Don't worry you are not alone in this world.  You may want to see your doctor and ask if they can prescribe you something for anxiety.  Explain the situation you are having.  I have OCD and definitely understand what you are talking about.  Even though you know you would never act on these impulsive thoughts, it still scares you that you might not be able to control your thoughts.  You know they are wrong, but still obsess over them. The best medication that has helped me the most with my OCD is Paxil, but only your doctor knows what you can take or not take according to your Rx's and history.  

Have you recently  had a big change in your life that could have aggravated this?  I know when I get aggravated I tend to wash my hands more.  Sometimes, we tend to obsess over irrational things instead of what the real problems are at hand.  Hope you get some help with this and let us know how you are doing.  Really concerned about you.

Take Care.

[kriskam01]

i know where your coming from. mine came out of the blue after i had surgery and it has really freaked me out. i thought i was going crazy. i did see a counselor and my doc and both said it is severe anxiety but reading up on things it looks like ocd so maybe my surgery triggered it.anyways i would go see a doctor. i am on zoloft and feeling better every day been on it for 3 months i still have my days but i can now just let it go and tell myself it was just a thought it will go away and i can move on. there is hope don't give up that is what i tell myself and it seems to help.

good luck

[genix]

same thing here mathew, its really bizare it seems to happen to me when im most at ease talking to someone, and its ALWAYS the exact opposite of my beliefs , those impulses to swear or punch someone when your happily having a conversation frighten the **** out of you eh? they did for me for years

[LLFgirl]

The same thing happened to me many years ago and first of all it is not your fault for having these thoughts. See a doctor as soon as possible. The good news is medication can control these intrusive thoughts and make them fade away. These thoughts used to control my entire life so much that I couldn't sleep at night, but not I'm doing well because I take medicine for it. There is hope! Don't give up. I would recommend talking to a psychiatrist because they can prescribe the medicine. If you don't have access to one, your regular family doctor could help you as well. Remember it is not your fault for having this becuase it's a chemical imbalance in the brain that can be corrected with medicine and sometimes therapy can help. Hope this helps.