obsessions

[genix]

i have for years had really ****** up thoughs, and they are all the opposite of the person i am, whats worse is i have them when im most calm, for instance ill  be listening to someone talk to me, and an impulse will shoot into my brain and say **** like your a fuckwit, ******* wanker or something that is the exact opposite of what im thinking, ill be talking to my girlfriend and really scary **** just shoots into my brain like violent thoughts, everything is the opposite of what i actually feel its really offensive to me, for years it stressed the **** out of me, now i just tell myself its just a thought ignore it. It wasnt untill one day i looked at this baby and though what a dear little thing then  the thought ( i prefer the term  impulse ) flew into my head to hurt it, it scared the **** out of me, everything is the oposite of what i believe in. I dont worry about it so much now, but im so ******* anxious all the time even though i dont care about the impulses anymore. Doctor told me i have ocd with primary obsessions. Its the anxiety that has led me to a life of self medication though. Is this normal for OCD ?

[books33]

I think a good thing to ask yourself is have I done any of these things in my head? If you have never acted it out the whole time you have been going through it, that means you are not a psychopath and wouldn't hurt anyone. You are only SCARED or WORRIED of hurting someone, and that is why you are OCD. There is a difference. You know those types of things are wrong, they are not in your character, so you don't act them out. That is a good indication that you never will. You would have done something already if it was in your character.

Maybe that will help!

[genix]

no i mean the thoughts, being offensive, and the types of thoughts, or am i a psycopath?
it has really worried me before even though they are the opposite of the person i really am

[emraedale]

*hand in hand with ocd

[emraedale]

hey genix,
i was diagnosed with depression, ocd and anxiety in 2005 and only now am trying to get off zoloft. difficult as anything,. did you mean the self-medication being normal? or the huge amount of anxiety being normal? because the latter goes handin hand with anxiety, i'm pretty sure. it just spins the thoughts on and on. like a round about. if ur anxiety is a product of chemical imbalances (e.g. serotonin) then medication is perfectly normal .to counter the anxiety (if chemically charged) then using medication is pretty normal. and u cant counter ocd without first countering the anxiety. hmm... im writing to u mainly because god, i know where you are man. and its ******.