so scared

[mrscashman84]

ive had ocd ever since I can remember, the older I got I started getting intrusive thoughts and mine are always spiritual they scare the hell out of me.. I have an obsessive fear of being possessed I know its irrational but it scares me and the thoughts are constant. im a Christian I do trust in god I love god but im at a point where I think medication might be the answer for me does anybody know any good medications out there that are effective in helping with the almost constant obsessive scary thoughts?

[mariabianca]

I'm Roman Catholic & my OCD started when I was about 11. No one I could talk to & I was scared to tell the nuns or the priests that Satan was invading my thoughts. Finally it got to be too much that I did it in the confessional. I figured the priest couldn't yell at me & to my surprise he didn't. He actually told me that I couldn't control what popped into my head which now leads me to believe he probably did understand what the disease was when I didn't. I was later diagnosed with a form of OCD where I just have the raging thought process & no symptoms, meaning I don't have to wash my hands after touching something. It's rough. I'm pretty good but I still have some moments

[mrscashman84]

thank you:) I know in the back of my mind that I cant be possessed because I have the holy spirit in me its just hard as im sure you know to have to even have to try convince yourself or reassure yourself lol, but I totally know how you feel when I first started getting intrusive thoughts I would pray for god to just take me now so I didn't have to go through it but I know this will pass it always does I go through periods when I don't really get any intrusive thoughts and then almost at the same time every year they strart up again its more like a curse but I like to think theres a reason for everything we go through so eventually maybe well know why we had to go through this one day

[mrscashman84]

thank you so much, yeah I often feel like nobody could understand my crazy thoughts but I know that's not true im just so glad as horrible as this is that there are others out there that are going through the same thing as you

[mariabianca]

You'll pull through it. My OCD is partially sex based, religious & of the devil. Put all 3 together & it's a hell of a threesome. I'm on Effexor & the doctor just upped my dose to 150 mg. Prior to the medication I thought I was going crazy. When I studied the disease & learned about it, I learned that these are actually NORMAL thoughts for the disease. I thought for sure no one would understand but I was wrong. OCD people do understand, so I know you'll get through it

[jonasmania2012]

Begging God to let me die ##

[jonasmania2012]

I suffer the same issues with ocd. It's scary as heck cause all I want to do is make sure I get to heaven when I leave this God forsaken earth. I'm struggling deeply at the moment with these issues and have even got to the point where I'm being God to let me die. I pray constantly for relief. As for your issue, if you have the holy spirit living inside of you from being saved, you can't be possessed because of the holy spirit lives in you, there's no room for evil spirits. God is protecting you, I promise. Prozac and Elavil are the two drugs that helped me the most. They worked miracles and you might need to try some differentt ones before you find the right one. I hope this helps you and remember that your never alone with God. He's always there no matter what and that your not the only one suffering like this. God bless.