VENT!! After wanting it for so long the only thing I feel is fear :'(

[worried_mommy213]

Hi, this is the first time on this page, I just found out today I'm. Pregnant, possibly (estimated) 6 weeks and 2days.  A little back story..... (sorry if its long)
Ive been with my husband for 10yrs, married for 5 going on 6yrs. We tried for years to conceive, it just never happened. I'm 26 and figured I'm still young and should let God decide when the time was right for us to be parents. In. July of 2011 we were approached to be foster parents with the possibility of adoption, it literally took us seconds yo say yes. Long story short in Sept of 2013 we finalized our adoption,  I have beautiful now 4yr old. Princess and a rough but cuddly now 3 year old mommas boy, they are my world.
So finding out I'm Pregnant came as a surprise, I just accepted that God had a different path to motherhood for me, and I was grateful to say the least. Now don't get me wrong, my husband and i are thrilled at the news. But at the same time I don't feel as relieved as I thought. I would, or has overwhelmingly excited....  I think above anything else I'm mostly terrified!!! I'm afraid to get my hope up, to get excited and start planning , for something to go wrong. I have this fear or more like a dread that I'm not gonna ever meet my baby, that something will go wrong... my husband does not understand why I'm not more excited, I just feel like crying when this should be so joyous.  I don't know how to explain this feeling to anyone, and I'm even more afraid to admit my fears and say it out loud...  will this feeling go away as things move along or will it get worse? Is this kinda thinking even normal?  I just feel like I'm tearing myself apart and i don't know how to stop :'(

[hiswife12]

This is completely normal we r the same age n im on my third pregnancy with twins n everytime i find out im expected i automatically start worrying!!!! i think its called ur mortherly instinct that kicks in!!! lol!!!so the way u r feeling is  normal!! Keep in mind  that what is for u is for u !! n God  never  puts more on u then u can bear!! he as given u the blessings of becomin a mother not once but three times!!!! enjoy it embrace and  by this bein ur very first pregnancy u r  goin to have lots of worry so keep notes ask questions and read!!!! it helps ease ur mind!!! congrats hun!! u will b and do just fine!! i wish u a healthy and happy pregnancy n delivery!!!!

[naru89]

I understand i didn't get excited till recently. After my husband and i tried for a few years we had 4 misscarages. When i got pregnant this time i just couldn't get excited i was too scared. Now that i'm 18 weeks its finally feeling okay so just take it one day at a time it will get better i promise

[Brakyn14]

Extremely normal im now 35 weeks but I remember getting his room ready and thinking what if something goes wrong and then I just have his room here and he never comes home. The. When I have my baby shower I couldnt help but cry thinking what if they bought him all this stuff and something goes terribly wrong! Prayer! I pray every night asking god to keep my baby boy sage healthy and alive! Yes I still have my worries but prayer does make me feel alot better! I hope your pregnancy goes terrific!  And you enjoy it as much as possible!  Just know alot of those worries are normal amd your not alone!

[Kanne123]

Honestly I'm 32 weeks with my first and still terrified. I think it just comes with pregnancy to be honest. The little things keep you excited. Hearing the heartbeat, seeing the sonograms, once you feel movement, getting a belly.... Try to enjoy mama! Congrats!

[kitakirk]

Yes. It is normal to feel that way. I'm 8weeks and 3 days pregnant with twins and I'm fearing the same thing. I voiced my fear and talked to my Dr as well as my family and everyone assured me that everything will be alright. So I'm writing you to say be happy and enjoy this special moment. God gave you a special gift and you should embrace it and not worry. :)