Wanting to be awake

[Reign81]

My first child ended up in an emergency c section after 23.5 hours of labor. I remember them putting the sheet up so i couldnt see. Then i felt cutting. I screamed that i felt it. They gave me more meds then tried again. Again I felt it. I was scared and my heart was going a million miles. They ended up knocking me out.
Now I'm pregnant again which is going to be a c section. I'm scared I'll freak out again and won't be awake to see my baby. Its bad enough I couldn't have the baby naturally. I was asleep for a long time so they ended up giving him a bottle which made breast feeding impossible. How can I make myself not freak out and miss this delivery?

[Reign81]

I had an epidural before. Could my anxiety of caused it to stop working? It was working during labor.

[soon2bmomof4]

Did the give you an epidural or spinal? Maybe if they try a spinal this time if it was an epidural last time it will work for you.

[nikel24]

I feel the same way. They were not able to numb me and had to knock me out also. I did not see my baby until 10 hours later. I felt robbed that I didnt hear my baby cry, get pictures, and my husband was not present. I have voiced my concerns to my doctor. It was also a scheduled c section. In 3 weeks I am having another. I think my problem is that I have scoliosis. You had an emergency c section which is why everything was so rushed and chaotic. Your next one will probably be scheduled and hopefully go smoother. Worrying does us no good...the bottom line is they do what they have to to deliver our babies.

[abbb01]

Im sorrt it was such a bad experience can u listen to music at all when they at least begin? And just remember this one is planned so they're well prepared see if u can talk to the anesthesiologist prior.