being let down

[loobylou186]

So upset with my mother.when I was younger she had a drinkimg problem which she sorted out until she and dad split up 3 years ago it start up again.when we found out I was pregnant after having a few problems she again curbed it until yesterday she she got drunk and is still drunk today.im 37 weeks pregnant dont drive and suffer from s.p.d my docs are about a mile away and I have a midwifes appointment today my mum normaly takes me as I cant walk it.well she has now let me down 2hrs before appointment.my husband is at work and is a few hours drive away so he cant get back in time im so hurt by her.she is suppose to be ome of my birthing partners aswell how can I rely on her when she cant stay sober 20 days before my due date.im not normaly an emotional person but I feel so alone and cant stop crying!!

[loobylou186]

My dad lives over an your away and he works.i do have friends but ones who dont work have kids ive got two already so theres no room in the car.the ones that dont have kids work.next time ill get a taxi but didnt have the money on me today.and we dont get dial for a ride here in fact never heard of it.

[loobylou186]

Ive been there for her my whole life picking up the pieces after one of her "binges" I just dont know if I can do it any more.i can handle being second best to the bottle bit when it comes down to the health of on of my kids born or unborn thats where I think enough os enough.i made it to my appointment I walked it.

[dande2169]

Have you asked your dad for help? Do you have any friends or family that you can call? How about a taxi or dial a ride service? I know it doesn't resolve things with your mother, but at least you might have options for getting to your appointment.

[annat33]

I understand how you feel I was really close to my grandmother she was like a second mother to me I loved her very much still do. She passed away about a year ago at 67 years old. She had a drinking problem to it was because she was so sad and no matter what anyone said or did she would still find ways to hid her drinking or go on binges. I hated it cuz I would have to see her not make any sense stuble around and pass outlooking like she died. I even found her passed out in her closet half naked with her foot stuck in a small trashbin. It was horrible. But unless they really want to change there iisn't much you can do but try to love them and do what u can to get them to stop. When your an addict its the hardest thing ever to stop completely its a day to day struggle that I'm sure your mom has to deal with and I'm sure she feels badly for letting you down and it prob adds to the drinking. Try to have faith everything will be ok but if u have to try to see if u have any other family nny or friends you can ask as back up incase your mom can't do it again or can't be there for u.