I've been suicidal, dr suggests induction

[Tinkerbelle5]

Hi all I am just looking for some advice
So I live in a small town and my fiancé works in the city which is almost 2 hours away
So he rents in the city temporarily and I only see him about once a week as I stay home now from work
I have been suffering really badly with depression and anxiety for the last trimester of my pregnancy
Just yesterday I think I had a nervous breakdown and ran away from the house . I went to a hotel and turned my phone off . My fiancé call the police because he was worried about some suicidal text messages I sent . Just all the pregnancy hormones have pushed me over the edge I am very ashamed of myself and know I would never try to kill myself but I went crazy I don't know how to explain it, being alone all the time no family or friends close by.
Anyway my doctor met me at the hospital and she is suggesting that I be induced this Wednesday for the above reasons and also because my fiancé can then get a bit of time off work to be there with me in town for the delivery. I know there are risks involved but I am also scared to remain pregnant with the way I've been thinking and feeling lately and I don't want to harm my baby . Should I agree to be induced ? I will be 38 weeks and 5 days when she would be inducing me . Any advice or input is greatly appreciated .

[ShirraD]

Induction may be hard on you as it starts the process of labor but in your case I would trust the doctor and do it.  You are full term after37 weeks and baby if fully developed.  You need to take care of yourself to take care of baby.

[Cordelia158]

Your baby will be perfectly fine. At 38 weeks you are already at the 9 month marker, so your baby should be fully developed and ready to make the transition from life in the womb to life out here.

So yes, trust your doctor. Perhaps your mother could stay with you for the first few days? That's what I'm going to do. She works, but she's been saving her vacation days for when I'm due so I won't be alone.

[2nvus4me]

Also try light therapy. You can buy a mood enhancing lamp

[Mamaofdeux]

It's going to be a tough adjustment getting used to mommy life I won't lie to you. The first couple days are going to be really tough as your body rids itself of all those hormones but just remember: This Too Shall Pass. No matter what you feel, it is okay, and it won't last forever. I know that my hospital sends a nurse to visit you a week after you deliver to check in on you, and that nurse will have access to a lot of programs and information that can help you. I don't know if all hospitals do that, but whatever they offer you, take it. Any help that anyone offers you will go a long way. I highly recommend taking advantage of anything that can be provided for you.

[Tinkerbelle5]

Thanks mamaofdeux no unfortunately I live in this small town we just moved here my family is across the provinces and no friends here I'm just praying for the best  my doctor is getting me a therapist and if I have to go on meds I will
But I'm scared of the induction but i think it will be okay maybe once these hormones wear off I can feel normal

[Mamaofdeux]

I definitely think you should induce and see a therapist to talk about meds. The hardest part of depression is knowing you have it and not being able to change the way you feel. You need to take the best possible care of yourself so that you can be able to take the best possible care of your baby. Do you have family you can call in a favor from? Maybe someone who doesn't work who can come stay with you for a couple weeks after your SO goes back to work so you don't have to do it all alone?

[Tinkerbelle5]

Thank you so much  I am nervous to induce but in this situation I think it is best

[RaisingTwoSoon]

Baby should be fine. My opinion is yes for induction. Better for your safety. Baby will survive fine and suggest you get on an anti depressant incase you have post partum depression or psychosis based on your severity. Just know this is not your fault and everything will be ok! Baby lungs and organs should be well developed!