Just a long rant...
I went to dr today at 39+6 for check up and sweep, and I had a student DR. He spoke to be for a while, then measured me. He looked super confused for a second, and when I asked if soemthing was wrong he went to get another DR.
10mins later they came back with my file, and the DR explained that my last scan at 36w baby was 8.5lb, but I was told this is fine. Now he was estimating to be 10.5lb.
The drs are worried about leaving me to go into labour naturaly incase he gets bigger, as hes at high risk for getting stuck on the way out.
So there inducing me tomorow morning.
I dunno why it hit me like a truck but Im suddenly terrified. I thought I was ready, and physically we are, nothing at home I can do. But mentally, I feel so unprepared, Ive been shaking most the day, no appitite, feeling so run down.
To make matters worse, my husbands friends have thrown him a last minuit party for his birthday so hes gone out until gone knows what time, will no doubt show up drunk at 5am, despite the fact we have to be at the hospital at 10am, and cannot understand why Im upset.
Im trying to stay calm, watch a movie have a hot shower, just chill, and get spme rest before a good night sleep but my brain is flitting around at 100 mph, im crying on an off, I dont want to end my last day without baby or start my babys new life like this but I cannot switch my brain off and relax.
Im so stressed and cannot work out if Im actually being unreasonable or if my partner is being a selfish jerk...
Rant over...