suicide?!?!

[crazycurious11]

Okay I know I'm going to get a lot of negative comments on this but I need help and this just hit me yesterday so I haven't had time to seek professional help. So I was with my boyfriend for 3 years, I'm crazy obsessed with him till this day and he is with me we love each other soooooo much but we had broken up for a few months and I moved on and he moved on but we ended up having sex and he finished inside me (we were not together) and he did something that made me really upset so I had sex with a friend a week later and he finished inside me as well (he says he didn't and wants no part) so a month later I find out I'm pregnant and me and the guy I love got back together. He doesn't know what I did though and I never thought about it until now, were getting married in a few days and I was so excited we love this baby but yesterday he called me crying that he had a fight with his mom and that she asked for a DNA test and that's when it finally hit me how stupid and such a **** that I was :'( I been going CRAZYY literally since yesterday I want to kill myself thought about hurting my baby but I just can't I'm seriously going crazy I've been laying in my bed kicking and screaming and praying for the past 5 hours. I don't want to choose between my babys life, mine or my relationship with the love of my life. Losing any of those would kill me!! I'm 10 weeks pregnant and I'm 18 years old Im getting married but now not looking forward to having this baby because it might not be his!! Idk what to do!! I'm so lost, confused, deppressed, crazy!! Please I need advice.......judge me if you must but I really dont need it........

[renny320]

Have you been to your doctor for any early ultrasound? If the sex was was a week or more apart you may be able to figure out whether it's your fiance's baby. I still feel like you don't want to keep this secret from him because it could cause big problems if he finds out later, but if you could find out before you tell him whether it is his baby, you could save him from a lot of heartache. Good luck. I hope everything turns out well for you.

[DNP47]

Your relationship is unhealthy, that type of attachment sounds like an obsession rather then a healthy relationship between two partners. You recieved some great advise in your post in the "pregnancy 18-34" forum. Please call a pregnancy crisis center.

[im_jus_sayin]

no judging needed sweetie... everyone makes mistakes... and i mean everyone... it does sound like you need someone to talk to.... the only thing you can really do is be honest with your soon to be husband... it sounds like you guys really care about eachother... its not gonna be easy no matter what... but you guys werent together at the time and stuff does happen...  suicide is not the answer though... that will not solve anything and you will leave so many people hurt and asking questions... im not judging cuz ive been in a simalar situtation.. not exactly the same but kinda... it ended up working out for the best... try not to give up and try not to think about hurting yourself or the baby... im here if you need to talk you can send me a message...