Venting

[love102110]

I'm going through a really hard time right now, I'm 37wks almost time for my baby to be here I have a 1yr. old baby, holidays are coming and I'm really sad because my baby's father won't be around and all because of a huge fight we had. About a week ago we had this fight, domestic violence he was on drugs and he thought I had sneaked somebody into our home which I'm not longer there, he got all aggressive he started dragging me around I tried to defend myself by throwing a glass at him with no intentions of hitting him just wanted him to let me go, when he came back he was bleeding I told him to clean himself before going to work but of course he didn't because he wanted to show his uncle that I had hit him he wanted to be the victim, so an hr later his mom came to my parents house told my parents that I had stabbed him everyone went to the apt to see what happened, I started packing my stuff while his uncle was telling his mom to call the cops on me to get me locked up that he didn't give a f*** because I could of killed him supposedly, what pisses me off so much is that they know what he did to me, his mom better than anyone knows it's not the first time he does that to me last yr I went to jail because of the same thing he had scratches that I didn't even noticed he had, he was dragging me around he was on drugs but I'm the one who went to jail for some stupid scratches. So his family kept on calling the cops the ambulance got there to check on him he said he was ok that he didn't wanted to press charges AT ALL THAT HE WAS GOOD. So his family kept on finding ways to screw me over now I got cps involved asking me all kinds of questions because according to a report im such a evil mom that I be locking my baby in the closet like seriously that's too much and I blame my baby's dad family idk why they wanna do that if they don't even like my baby they're so mean to her they're even doubting my 2nd child so why are they doing this? I feel so betrayed by him for not doing anything about it, I love him and I stayed with him hoping he'll quit his drugs but I realized he won't stop h8s family knows what he's doing but I'm the bad one of course his mom doesn't even care I been more supportive with him than his own mom and his whole family knows that, now I'm going through all this mess scared for these cps people to take away my babies from me, I been through so much pain, humiliation from this guy I don't think I could go through more pain if I lose my babies that'll be the end for me, idk what to do, I have proofs of him acting dumb while on drugs, my biggest mistake was to have my baby around him and his conditions i regret it but in a way i did it to have all kinds of proofs to keep him away from us I hope and pray that helps me to keep my babies with me, i cant keep in contact with him at all, they told me the only way for him to see the babies again it's only if he gets clean. I'm so scared to lose my babies I don't want to lose them I hope and pray so much that I can get through this I feel so depressed but I'm trying to stay strong for my babies that's all I care about, but I can't help to feel anger towards him and his family for making all this a huge mess I know he scared for me to lose his babies his family just don't care they wanted to f*** me over trying to justify and "help" him not realizing they were dragging him too. I pray I can get through this I can't live without my babies.

[RockRose]

Do you have a CASA volunteer on your case?  That would be helpful - they're good at advocating for the best interest of the children.

I hope you didn't tell the CPS worker that you purposely exposed your children to this situation so you could continue to compile evidence against him about how dangerous/irresponsible he is.

You do have to be concerned that now you've got two documented incidents of battering him.  I know from your perspective you were only defending yourself - but from the perspective of law enforcement,  they arrived twice and he was the injured one.  This isn't a simple case.

Best wishes.

[love102110]

Yes that was my mistake by having my baby around him but that's till now that everything happened I know I should of never done that but I feel good about that because I got all the proofs I needed to say that he is an addict and we can't be around him, I'm so dumb for having my baby around him but that was the only thing I needed to prove anybody that we needed to stay away from him. The day that everything happened he told the cops and paramedics that he was good that he didn't wanted to press charges to drop everything but later on his family kept finding ways to get cps on me without him knowing, they made up lies about me so that's why they been coming to my house to check how's my baby but before I left the apt where I was living with him he told me that me and the baby's are going to be fine at my parents house he knows we're good over here, I'm just praying to keep my babies with me his family won't even take care of them so they made all this mess for nothing just to screw me over

[love102110]

What is CASA? right now I have a caseworker she's been coming to my house, some other lady is coming to talk to me about what's gonna happen next and they told me that as long as I cooperate this won't last more than 3 months, I gotta go to these domestic violence classes so that's the first step, they interview my family to see if my babies are good living here, they still have to interview my babies father they're gonna drug test him and he's gonna come out dirty but I already know his family is gonna make up lies to make look bad and evil like they told the cops, they're so dumb and ignorant.

[love102110]

I'm sorry I read it wrong I didn't purposely had my baby around him, if I stayed is because he had fooled me that he had stopped doing drugs and my dumb self believed him, I noticed he was using again since we moved in to the new apt we had that's when I found out he was doing drugs but before that everything was good he fooled me real good, but it was till now that I got the evidence because I was already planning on leaving him and I didn't wanted him to get close to us

[hotchicitahc]

Yeah I been there and I have my kids family like that too

[hotchicitahc]

Just stay calm everything will be fine and Ull make it

[love102110]

Thank you. It just makes me mad how his family did all of this just to mess with me, it's not like they're gonna be taking care of my babies

[Jules1294]

I would see if you can get a protection or a restraining prder from him an his family. Cps might be able to help you with that if you ask your case worker

[love102110]

He can't get close to us until he gets clean he's gonna need professional help for that, and I told her the way his family treats my baby especially his little siblings I told her if there's any way she could let them know not to get close to us and she said she will send them a letter. I'm just really not trying to lose my babies

[Jules1294]

Make sure you tell CPS exactly what happen they really don't have any grounds to take the kids away.  You where in a abusive relationship and make sure you make that known.  They can help you.  Just breath and try to stay relaxed and calm Stress right now is not good for you or your baby

[love102110]

I told everything that happened to my caseworker I even showed her all the proofs I have, she said that the only issue here is that I kept my baby around him while all this was happening and him using drugs I know that was a huge mistake of mine but thanks to that I got all the proof I needed, what I really wanna do is keep her away from his family I don't want them around us