So i was happy. Recently my hubby been arrested. Violating probation.has court on the 20th. Im in a depression you cant believe. I was even asked my one of my children who was i talking to. I guess im talking to myself now without noticing it. Im sad and feel like drinking. Im not. But the urge is there and i feel terrible for it. This is my 5th pregnancy my rainbow baby. I cant help it. The d.a. says its a 2yr violation. Omg im dying inside.we moved 400 miles away to start a new. And here i am alone. Being both mom and dad. And trying to carry on.