need to vent feeling worthless

[mommyof3EA]

Im 21 I got a 3 year old and a almost 5 year old both by the same dad. (Not with no more) me and my boyfriend now been together 2 year I just found out im pregnant im 5 weeks and 3 days his first kid im high risk from my last pregnancy due to a placenta abruption at 30 weeks. With this pregnancy I just had a sonogram I know early but I have a blood pocket daughter says take it easy and I have a 50/50 chance I terrified but i get my beta hcg checked every 2 days and its tripling I figured if I was miscarriaging it would be going down not up right? Well im on light duty at work no more than lifting 10 pounds no bending or squatting and no more that 8 hours a day 40 hours a week (you usually work 12 hours a day 7 days a week at my job) me and my boyfriend cant seem to get along I feel like he never wants me around nothing I do is good enough I work full time and got 2 kids I cook clean do laundry make his lunches but that seems to mean nothing to him he just thinks im lazy and hes always wanting to leave and telling me he hates it here that he dont want to.do it no.more and its really stressful and heart breaking and I know its not good on me because of the high risk pregnancy im in and I dont know what to do anymore I really just want to.give up

[mommyof3EA]

Ya not a good week I just feel hopeless

[juno92]

Damn. Rough week for you. I know its not much help but I'm here if you ever need to talk. Goodluck

[mommyof3EA]

I got laid off from my job today because of my high risk restrictions so that makes everything even worse I'm so stressed I wish I had some support but I don't :(

[juno92]

Sorry to hear that. But maybe that is the best thing for you and the kids right now. You never know, he might eventually realize his mistakes but for now you have to think of yourself and your babies. Too bad hes doing the same thing his dad did, hopefully he sees it and makes a difference. I think you need all the emotional support you can get right now. Of course we're all here to listen and talk to you. Pregnancy in itself is such an emotional time. I really do hope it all works out for you. You seem to be doing everything for your kids single handed and that's not easy. You're doing a great job.

[mommyof3EA]

Thanks girls I'm moving out

[mommyof3EA]

When I try to talk it turns into a yelling argument he says hes not going to kiss my a** and be nice just because I'm pregnant with his kid

[Musicbeauty7]

i know it's easier said than done, but try not to stress too much. It's not healthy for you and your baby. Sit down and comunicate with him and figure things out. Things will be ok, don't worry :)

[mommyof3EA]

Thanks I moved 2 hours away from my family to be with him so I got no one and I feel hopeless and idk what to do all these emotions of guilt pain angry depressed its awful I just cant handle it I thought itd be different because his dad was never around for him I figured he wouldnt want that for his kid but I feel like I am wrong about that

[juno92]

Sorry you're in that situation. Keep your head up. Maybe he just needs some time adjusting to everything. It might help to turn to family or close friends right now. The stress can't be good for you or your little one. Good luck. Hope things look up for you