Well ok vent when you need to. I know it ain't always easy to vent. Different reasons and stuff. Either shy or afraid or something. Seems like my fingers do most of the venting. My brain doesn't seem to do much. Sorry humor. Trying to lighten myself. My day wasn't so great. Well anyway talk when you can.
I thank -you for that but its hard for me i can only vent at certian times it just wont come other wise unless pervoked and thats why i need help
No problem. If you want to vent more you can. We're here.
I think you should try some of the things Jaquta said. I wasn't on here until now. Anyway try to find a program that will help you. Anyway sounds like you have a lot going on so yes feel free to vent. We need to at times. Maybe you are bipolar but you would have to see a doc. So try to find some place to help you. And I know how tough it is to deal with anxiety and stuff. Maybe you felt threatened so it happened. All I know is it's not good to live in fear all the time. I hope you can find a program to help you.
thank you for your comment
I dont believe that anything is fated to happen life just happens. Event other do or dont do effect us and the events we do or dont do effect everyone else. I said i cant fallow faith it all falls apart to me.
thank-you for listening
Life can sometimes feel like that. I think it is our responsibility to keep ourselves safe, or ask others to do it for us if we can't, because with life there is always the possibility of it improving.
I've been through periods where I have been extremely fearful of death. At times I would become anxious about going to sleep because I felt I might die during the night. I think my issues were triggered by a number of deaths around me.
If you feel you may have bipolar then you should speak to a psychiatrist who can properly evaluate you.
Your reaction was normal. Who in their right mind wouldn't feel frightened or afraid or intimidated?
It sounds like a passive suicide wish where you want to be dead (or don't want to have to deal with your issues) but you don't want to hurt yourself.
The irony is in that you are afraid of death (afraid of what gang members might do) but then want it. As long as you have control of the situation.
Safety issues generally always concern anger. Suicide is self-hatred, etc. Anger directed at yourself. Homicide is about other people.
Walls and defenses can be broken down.
My belief is that everything happens for a reason. We may not understand now but later we seem better able at putting things in perspective. Often we need to go through adversity. It makes us stronger people.
Didn't God make everyone? God created Adam and Eve.
Vent away. That sounds like a lot of stress to be under.
I have heard that there are low or zero fee clinics that people can attend. Have you tried accessing one of those?
Maybe you have ptsd?? Just a thought.
You could try asking the doctor on the mental health expert forum about accessing help, etc. He may give you some idea about what you are currently experiencing.
I would definitely try and access one of those clinics and also see if they provide psychotherapy. That would help heaps with the anxiety.
I think this might be about death and about feeling vulnerable and powerless. Ask the doctor, he is good to talk too. He also posts on the emotional eating expert forum.
I hope talking has helped you feel more connected to people and less alone.
Feel free to vent some more. We all do it here.
o and i forgot to say im losing my home soon the owner want to sell it