Maybe you are supposed to be expanding your emotional IQ. Depression, adversity, etc is good for that.
Good luck with the job.
No jokes but have a good day.
its really important to see the humor in things. sometimes its twisted but i think your brain produces the same helpful chemicals for a laugh at a sick joke as a bad joke. laughing is therapeutic.
when JOB is having all his troubles. lots of them. his supportive wife says to him why not just curse GOD and die. hillarious! support from our loved ones. there is humor there if you see it.
was in same spot you are. checked myself in hospital. severe depression is as bad as a heart attack. if id have had this depression in my 20,30 or even 40's id have died.
you mention not having the balls to kill yourself. it doesnt really take balls to kill yourself. it takes balls to live. each time you dont do it youve been strong not weak! if you have a GOD and you say you do than what is he up to?
Im in the same boat i was when i checkdd myself into the hospital a few years ago--- house in foreclosure, no work in over 2 years, family problems from a horror movie, drug withdrawal from prescription medication for depression and a doctor that may not give helpful info to a perspective employer that could finally be my ship coming in. ive got an IQ of 152 and all that means is that i dont exactly fit in and if i have $1 i can get a cup of coffee!
i dont know what GOD has in store for me. wish i did. waiting is tough. i will know about my employment status by the weeks end. if i dont get this job i may send you an address to send your gun to.include onew bullet please as im broke.
on a brite note happy passover (easter)
Firstly, get rid of the gun.
That's a whole lot of stuff to happen to one person in such a short period of time.
Have you tried accessing support from a free or low-fee clinic? You could try talking to a member of your church but I think you should be accessing more professional help.
It's possible you're depressed from all the recent negative changes in your life. I would strongly recommend you speak to a doctor.
Try asking the doctor on the mental health expert for advice. He is experienced and is more familiar with the health care system in your country. It could be a place to start and to get some additional suggestions.
To Shaz853. If you feel the tension, etc is building again you should contact either your doctor or therapist, probably your therapist, and discuss this with them. I have been there before too and it's not a very nice place to be. It is best to get help early though rather than be stressed for forever.
I am sorry your life is so bad right now, but taking your life is not the answer. I know this because in the past five months i have made two suicide attempts i was hospitalized the second time but i still came home with the thoughts. Its been two months since my last attempt and i feel it building to that point again, like you i am scared and i don't know if i would have the guts to do it there is bound to be something else, something to save us. You mention your sons they need you, i have six children and i know they need me. I can't begin to understand how you feel you have one through so much but i know what suicidal feelings are like and you need to speak to a doctor they can help you, i have a brilliant therapist and i wouldn't be here if it wasn't for him. Do you have any friends you could talk too? Sorry i couldn't be more help. Take care