Feeling really bad about looking at abortion pics

[kellibubba]

Before i say anything i am against abortion and believe it is the most horrofying thing to do to a baby...

before i found out  i was 9 weeks pregnant i was searching through fertility web pages and came across an abortion picture.. I quickly got out of the site but i still remember what i saw...then a few days later i needed exactly what i saw on the net.. a D and C.. It broke my heart to know what would happen to my baby and now i cant get it out of my head...
Im so sorry for even looking at it and believe if i didnt i would still have this baby...I feel so sad about it

[kellibubba]

All i can say is your answer helped me alot.. I would have loved to know where my baby went but was told it would be best if i didnt ask.. Do you think they buried him for me? or cremated him and theres no remains left ?

All i know is i have the most beautiful flowering peach tree out side of my window.. The flowers are pink and the smell is awesome and sweet. It flowers at the end of the same month when i ost my boy.. (july 27th) and i know thats him. I have never seen a tree like it and it never flowered untill the day i came home from hospital...everytime i look at it i think of him and ive called the tree '' my whyatt tree''. hopefully hes up there telling the big man that he needs a little brother or sister to look after...

[Boricuamorena2010]

Good answer HeatonWife

[HeatonWife]

I did the same thing before my dnc procedure....I looked up what they did to my body and what would happen to my baby during the dnc....I was horrified and cried my eyes raw. When I was in preOp i talked to the nurses and doctor about what i saw. Luckily they perform a suction-where they removed the baby whole and then perfomed the dnc after the baby was taken. I went to a catholic based hospital-where i had my 6 year old aswell-and they even buried the remains along with that months other m/c angels. Remember you did not chose to have an abortion, your babies life was taken from you.....its not your decision how to remove the baby- so dont place blame upon yourself. They also say that when perfoming a m/c dnc they usually scrap the lining and the baby comes out easily without harm...so think of it that way, they did one swipe-the baby was unharmed-and then continued with the cleaning procedure.

[Boricuamorena2010]

I found that after my miscarriage I needed counseling...i felt so guilty because after an abortion when I was younger, I felt like the miscarriage was my fault. I had these images in my dreams that really left me depressed and unable to get out of bed...only through God am I ok now. Praying for you.