Still anxious...

[Dunkel13]

I can't beat this feeling.  I had protected sex with an African SW 104 days ago.  Started to worry about HIV the next day when I saw a cut  on my shaft(most likely from her giving oral and cutting with her teeth).  About 8 days later I felt some inflammation in my forearms and hands and in my joints, low grade fever, night sweats, nausea, dry mouth and tongue and a general over cruddy feeling.  It lasted for a little over a couple of weeks.  But then my stomach started to make some loud gurgles, and I could feel it working overtime sometimes with indigestion pain and my stools were and still are consistently soft with occasional diarrhea.  I've developed peripheral neuropathy in my hands, and it's been occasional in my feet. I can have my legs crossed for a small amount of time and they will go numb.  I've had small mouth ulcers consistently on my lips.  I've had body wide muscle twitching, but mainly in my lower legs.  My lymph nodes have been enlarged, but not overly enlarged.  They have been examined by my physician and sexual health doctors, my physician is concerned because he has felt them get bigger, but the sexual health doctors I've seen do not think they're HIV related.  I've had very white papillae on my tongue with a single occurrence of me noticing leukoplakia on the side of my tongue.  I've had exercise induced exhaustion.  CBCs were taken 1 month which showed my lymphocytes were down and low, and my neutrophils were increased and high.  Then I had another CBC taken which showed my lymphocytes even lower than the previous CBC, and my neutrophils were higher than the previous.  

I have tested 11, 17, 26, 31, 48, 56, 61, 88, and 97 days post exposure.  They were either 3rd generation lab tests or 4th generation lab tests.  I am quite frankly still convinced I have HIV.  I'm living my life a lot more normal than I was earlier on, but, I'm still having all these symptoms/conditions.  I seriously have never felt like this.  I feel like something is running me down bit by bit.  It has to be systemic whatever it is because it's been tormenting me for over 3 months now.  The sexual health doctors tell me it's all "very reassuring" or that "it's not HIV, see your doctor if symptoms persist."  My symptoms are persisting.  But haven't been able to see my doctor.  I have been extremely busy lately.  I have visited Dr. Google quite a lot, though.  For the life of me I cannot figure this thing out.  My doctor stinks anyway.  I come to him with something I think it could be, and he just shrugs it off.  The only thing he seems confident in doing is ordering me more CBC tests which only scare me more.  I've got something.  I just know I do.  I'm a level headed person usually, but this episode has me stressed beyond belief because nothing has bothered me like this before.  And I hate doing what I did with that girl.  I truly hate it.  I tried telling her no at least 3 times that night.  The more drunk I got...  I lost my inhibition, and lost my mind for about 7-8 minutes.  Now I fear those 7-8 minutes could cost me the rest of my damn life.  I have heard people about delayed seroconversion, and HIV-2 antibodies taking longer to develop, and other potential infections increasing time to positivity.  Of course the SW was from West Africa where HIV-2 is more prominent.  I should feel super happy about my 97 day test.  And I would if I wasn't experiencing chronic symptoms like I am.  

Anyone else feel these symptoms?  I feel so crazy.  I hope there are other people out there feeling what I am feeling.  I'm going to test out to 6 months because of all this, and I hope and pray it will be negative...  But I wonder if it's negative if that will be enough for me?  How do I get past this?  Any advice would be helpful.

[minhasgps]

did you test ..what result now...

[sorry_to_bone]

If no lymph node problem you're likely ok, did you get tested?

[jogats33]

hi,am experiencing the same symptoms now. So,did you take another test?