your a great person full of love and potential but like above a counselor is needed to sort it for you
5 years of ptsd and other past counseling im a different person
my past is there my demons are there
but i dont have to let them win or control my mind with regret
i look back and focus on the good the fun
get the help you need your a good person good luck
you don't know any other way.
please seek therapy so you can learn how to deal with your past, how to forgive yourself, how to love yourself and how to provide for yourself.
the learning to love yourself is the most important thing here. honestly it is.
you don't value yourself at all because if you did you would never degrade yourself by prostituting.
you deserve love just like everyone else, maybe more.
please seek out therapy and begin to learn coping skills, go to school and learn a trade so you can better provide for yourself, etc.