lostdreams,goldenarm,nursegirl

[bizzy909]

To: lostdreams,goldenarm and nursegirl
To: lostdreams,goldenarm,nursegirl
Thankyou for your prompt response. To answer your question I got the suboxone from my dealer. I am taking the valium as part of treatment for epilepsy and anxiety. I only had my first seizure 5 months ago. My husband and I have been using every drug you can name for 15 years living and djing in Ibiza for 6 years did not help,. but have managed to cut it to a dabble here and there so I know it can suck you in as other drugs have with me before. I am living in Europe and I am an Aussie with my husbands family, I am very low and miss everything about downunder. The smack just makes it ok. I am holding down a job and after my seizure slowly trying to get my fitness back. The smack makes the pain and the sadness go away. Does smack stop your menstrual cycle?

[goldenarm]

I love to read.I dont care who wrote it if its a good read.I just read the local when i went out for breakfast. I took a week of vacation to do this.I will go back to work on monday.However im still answering my phone and emails a couple times a day when someone is in need of, .Please tell me what to do in this situation or help.Not the same as being out there working 10 hrs days as the norm if not more.If i had it my way i would take a month off to do this but i can only do 1 week at a time even though i have more time coming.What u r doing is far from childs play. The detox is every bit of real let alone the feelings we all go thru when we become addicted and come to the awakeing and realization of what we did and where we are and now what. Scary very real stuff.As i look back i wish i would have been as smart and determined to do what you have done.I would have saved myself alot of pain.I regret that to a point.basically i wish i knew then what i know now..I wrote a little something for you before i left to breakfast im ging to look at the posts again on the board. Your awesome June 66 Thanks for Helping me.

[june66]

If you like to read I suggest 'Dry' by Augusten Burroughs... it's the sequal to 'Running with Scissors' but blows the it outta the water. Don't even bother with the first one for now. Anyway, he is gay so if you are a homophobe that might sorta bother you, but otherwise the book is amazing. Very inspiring. Helped me make the choice to clean up. It will wrench your heart out and then put it back in.
Keep up the good work, you're amazing! I am awed by the ppl here such as yourself who are still working etc.! Makes what I am doing seem like child's play.

[goldenarm]

Well i can tell u smack make me feel invincble for along time when i was younger, till i ran out or got busted.and we all know its a dead end street. It did take the pain away and make everythng better.I hate it now, i hate how hard i worked and spent a fortune on that h$it.I wasted alot of life using .when i stopped everything and was clean for over 8 yrs things were alot better, it was nice to buy a house and go out and eat Lobster if i felt like it.I havent ever done illegal drugs again since my last run when i got put away.But the feeling from the oxys is the same as the smack.Except for that instant rush as i was IV user. sounds like your self medicating to remove the pain of something you could actually do something about..Please be good to yourself and get some help and put your priorties in order.I think you allready know what to do..