I began taking adderall for studying my freshman year at college. Then I got a pretty nice prescription for them in October 2008 but did not take nearly as much as I was prescribed. But now I have built up quite a dependency on them. Before I would take 20mg XR a day early in the morning to study alll day then 30 now 40mg XR which is also beginning to lose its effects. I am currently an undergraduate and will be taking the MCAT on September 4th. I need to study a lot so I have turned to none other all mighty adderall. During school, I would take it only on weekends or days when I am writing a big paper, or before an exam. It really did help me out a lot and I don't know if I could have done as good as I did with out it.
But now, I am studying everyday, all day. So I use it every day, all day. 40mg XR first thing in the morning. Then I study. But lately its been doing a lot of damage on me. Much more than before probably because I am taking so much more now without any breaks. I feel really depressed, angry, muscles twitch, i get nervous, confused, anxious, blurry vision, heavy eyes, jaw pain (from grinding I guess), dry mouth and the list goes on and vary every time.
I talked to my friends about it and they just says "so stop talking them!!!." Of course I don't need to tell you how easy that sounds. If I don't take them, I get no studying done. My mind just keeps wondering off, I have zero motivation or desire. I am under intense pressure to do really good on the MCATs or else I don't get into medical school. I know, so what, I can try again, do some thing else blah blah blah. But believe me when I say this, I can't. So the only viable option I see for me is to keep taking them for the next two months, every day.