Just realized I am a binge drinker!!

[CG822]

Iam a smart person, addiction runs in my family from top to bottom!  Everyone drinks!  I am going to be 26 saturday, I love to go out and party.  After a few episodes that I am not proud of and some friends and family telling me I need to change, I realized I had a problem!  My therapist is proud  am realizing this now.  I have great intentions

I know God has great plans for me.  I need more courage and strength!  I am hoping we can all connect and help one another.  I do not feene for drinks, I just start and cannot stop.  I get obnoxious, loud, rude and wake up the next morning feeling SO STUPID!  I never use to be like that, I think an array of events triggered it.  I also have depressiona nd anxiety and that is under control for the most part with meds and therapy.  BUT....I know alcohol defeats my meds.  I cannot continue on! I am looking forward to better days, new things, and I hope we can all connect!!!

[rod44]

hi again,

I am so glad you are doing ok,
I too had a good job, good family, my own home and a happy life. Over many years I lost the job lost my family and in the end I  tried to sell my home to pay for my drink habit.
This is the reality of chronic alcoholism

I am not proud of the fact but have to be completely honest and admit I stole money for drink. Alcoholism took me to some horrific places in my life. I would be the type of person who would believe that this will never happen to me, I was to learn the hard way that it could and did. I can not gloss over this or pretend it never happened. This was my experience and by sharing it if it helps to prevent some one making the mistakes I made thin I will have achieved something I hope.
i now have a god of my understanding in my life, i ask him for help each day and he never lets me down.
take care
rod44

[CG822]

Thank You Soberfrank and Rod44!  They were very encouraging.  Rod, Id neverrrrr steal or rob anyone, I keep a good job and I never call into work or ruin my busy day due to alcohol.   I just need to learn self control!  I want to go to AA meetings but I guess I am not ready.  I have not drank, so I feel awesome.  I am not wanting to either.  I gues I am going at my own pace and what fees right in my heart, God dwells in your heart and I am just listening to it and taking one day at a time.  God Bless!

[soberfrank]

Hi, I think you know that the more you drink, the worse your symptoms of depression and anxiety will deepen.  If your ready to quit now, life will be much easier to heal then if you keep drinking , and do start (feining).  Its not a question of will it happen, but when.  I would get some support from some recovering alcoholics like your doing here.  i think your doing the right thing.  remember, you never have to drink or embarasse yourself again.  You will have better days as you posted , and the depression gets better after you stop drinking,  you fell better about yourself to start with.  good luck , and god bless.  if you ever need to talk , im here for you.  f

[rod44]

Hi CG822
There are many labels put on types of drinkers, heavy drinkers, problem drinkers, social drinker, binge drinker alcoholic drinkers ect, at the end of the day it is not so much how or what you drink but the effect it has on you and how it effects others around you. We can spend forever analysing our drinking patterns and forget why we are concerned about our drinking in the first place.
Alcoholism is a progressive illness, it effects are both physical, mental and emotional. It is a disease that leaves you believing that there is nothing wrong with you (denial) it is an illness that when you are in its grips nothing else matters other than drink, you will steal for it, you loose family, friends and jobs but nothing will stop you from drinking. It changes how we think and behave and we loose our moral values because of our addiction.
I had a sneaking suspicion when I was in my teens that I was drinking too much, that suspicion eventualy in my twentys had become a concern not just to me but my family and friends who expressed there concerns, unfortunately on deaf ears. It was not until I was in my late thirties and at rock bottom, destitute and very much alone that I sought help. It was do or die, I had lost all faith in god (drink was my god) but the day I stopped I was contemplating suicide, I prayed for help and guidance, the help I got was not quiet what I was expecting I was arrested as it was felt I was a danger to my self because I was so drunk. I asked for a doctor at the police station. The doc had me with my consent admitted to a local mental health unit and that was the beginning of the end of my drinking. That was where I had my first encounter with an origination that was to save my life. AA. Today most of my friends are people I know through AA. I go to meetings to help the new person coming to the rooms for the first time and they help me by reminding me of what it was like when I was out there drinking.
I don’t frequent bars today but have a wonderful sober
social life
I don’t want or need a drink today. I ask god for help each morning and I am grateful for the life I have today.
Sober a day at a time since 2002.
rod44