Delerium

[ymedenas11]

I was a heavy drinker for 2 years before this summer ended. Every weekend I was usually drinking, and usually drunk. I took a Vegas trip in February where I tried ecstacy for the first time. One pill friday night, one pill saturday night. I felt completely fine after that weekend and my life continued. I did notice about two times after Vegas, that i had a memory lapse and had to quickly review where I was and what time it was. I was still partying every weekend after that Vegas trip and was having a good time. My weekend partying continued until this summer came and it got out of hand. I took another Vegas trip in June (I didn't do ecstacy), where we obviously partied hard with alcohol and weed. I than went to EDC (a rave in Los Angeles) about 2 weeks later. I was drinking monster/vodka, and after peeing twice, I wasnt feeling too well. It was because I was on an empty stomach and was probably dehydrated. Now where things got weird, was when my friend spiked my next drink with one ecstacy pill, and i started tripping. I got bad anxiety, and had to leave the rave. After my cousins picked me up, I felt relieved and was fine. The next day I felt ok, but was havin weird memory lapses and having to review where i was and what time it was. I continued partying the weekend after that with alcohol, but noticed when I would drink I would have a flashback, and I started having anxiety. Where things really got weird was when i went to greece towards the end of July. The first night i binged when i got there, and i had a flashback again, but kept partying the night away and the anxiety went away. The next night I partied once again, binging but there was no flashback. I figured I was fine. The next day is when it got weird. I woke up feeling completely delusional. Everything was really weird. I couldnt figure out what was wrong with me. I didnt figure I might have been dehydrated, so I didnt really drink any water. Being as dumb as i was, i ended up drinking the next night away and partying. Now the day after that night (3rd day), thats when I was completely delusional. At certain points my vision would dim, and I would feel completely lost, and lose track of time. My friends figured I was dehydrated, so I started drinking water throughout the trip like no other. Things were slowly improving. When I got back from Greece, I decided to quit drinking. I was still feeling delusional, but things were improving. Now its been the 5th week back, and I feel almost normal. I talked to a friend who is a psychologist, and she said what happened was all the binge drinking, and that one pill of ecstacy from EDC, all built up and triggered my mental state to change that 2nd day in Greece. I became delusional. She said the flashbacks and memory lapses were from the ecstacy. I figured it might have been that, but also came to the conclusion that it might have been a result of not drinking enough water and eating right. She says water and eating right had nothing to do with it and it was the pill and all the binging that triggered it. I dont understand how one bad trip off one pill of ecstacy could affect me when I was drinking alcohol, and than triggered my mental state to change. Can anyone offer more insight on this?

[surfin]

actually, death from ecstasy use is very rare.  It is dangerous for other reasons though, as well as when it's combined with other drugs.  here's a fairly recent article, showing MDMA's ranking amongst other drugs (the chart is at the bottom of the article)  http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/6474053.stm  

[narla]

How can you say Ecstasy isn't physically dangerous,correct me if I'm wrong but haven't people died because of Ecstasy,or due to some of the side affects of Ecstasy.

Denise

[surfin]

if the brain were only so simple  [:   At age 18 I liked taking E about every 3 months for raves, then the next year every two, and then 1 or 2 times per month the year after.  Ecstasy is famous for not being a dangerous drug, but it does have tremendous side effects.  Your body and mind are in a delicate equilibrium.  If you give your brain a pill to release a massive amount of a chemical that it normally releases gradually (offered as a reward), you can offset the chemical stability for up to 2 or 3 months.  When depression comes around, you might not even realize it.  You mood will drop for long periods of time, and you may blame other things.  Just because E isn't physically dangerous doesn't mean it's worth doing.  I found this out the hard way, and it's not nearly as fun after a while.  Why not be an example of courage and quit taking ecstasy?  Why not take a step away from excess and into maturation?

[ymedenas11]

im still curious to find out what causes delirium? what goes unbalanced in the brain that causes it to change?

[ymedenas11]

thanks man, reality is starting to settle in now and my joy of life is coming back to me. its only been a month too! im sure in 6 months - 1 year ill be as healthy as i can be!

[Punkinhead75]

Thanks for the post.  I can't speak for you other than only time will tell.  I know for me that drinking isn't good for me.  I've learned to enjoy life without the booze and the drugs.  I started out a lot like you with the heavy drinking on weekends and ended up being an around the clock drinker.  It wasn't until I was about thirty that I started having problems that were alcohol and drug related.  The warning signs are there for you right now.  You are a young man with a bright future.  Alcohol and drugs have a way of erasing good potential.  Do you have any other plans for your life other than being a moderate drinker?  Best wishes!!

[ymedenas11]

ya, im 20 and i go to school and i work on the weekends. i love basketball. my psychologist told me i cant ever drink again because she thinks ill go back to my old ways of binging and it might trigger the delerium state again. i wasnt an alcoholic, just a weekend party guy. Im going to wait a couple months before my next drink, but i would like to think the day will come when i can enjoy a drink and be a moderate drinker. ive only taken 3 ecstacy pills in my life, 1 which was spiked in my drink. Ive obviously smoked weed before, but no other drugs besides that. Do you think the day will come when I can drink again and just enjoy myself?

[ibizan]

i'm going to assume ur in ur early 20's by the rave attendance!what do u enjoy doing that doesn't involve alcohol/drugs/partying?what are ur hobbies,interests?? got friends that aren't party til u can't feel ur toes ppl?????do u work?school?girlfriend?any close family supports?

[ymedenas11]

im definately feeling better now after week 5 and im out of that delerium state. what would you guys suggest i do to completely heal and be as normal as can be?

[dominosarah]

Gotta agree with the above posters.....I hope you will take a real hard look at what you are doing here and get some help with this.  Next time may be the last time......sara

[ibizan]

i'm with surfin...u have NO clue what they put in that X!any drug that can make ur brain do what that drug is has pure chemical garbage in it that affects the central nervous system in a bad and unknown way...i also agree with the psychologist that the X is the culprit of the aftereffects u've been feeling........insanity is repeating the same mistakes and expecting different results......it would be insane to put X in2 ur body again!!!!!

[surfin]

Sorry, none of the symptoms you described are normal.  You really need to start taking care of yourself.  I was the same way.  I always thought I was okay, or almost okay, like I was just dehydrated, or did too much of this or that.  If you're having all of these "weird" symptoms, it could be your mind and body telling you it doesn't like what you're doing to it.  I think it's awesome that you've stopped drinking for 5 weeks.  It's never to early for an alcoholic to get sober.

About that ecstasy, almost no pills are pure MDMA, so yours could have had amphetamines, dxm, opiates, or other drugs that may have not reacted will with your mind.  That's the danger of doing ecstasy, try looking up pill reports online if you're gonna keep doing drugs. www.pillreports.com is good for that, and erowid.com has tons of useful information about different drugs.

Hope this was helpful.  It's a crazy world we live in, live long and prosper!