I'm doing it! CT off alcohol

[Charlie's girl]

I have been drinking about a magnum of wine(red or white) plus a few vodka drinks a day.  Or, I have about a fifth of vodka a day.  It's the first thing I thnk about in the morning instead of coffee!!!!!!  Any suggestions?  I really need to do this privately.
Thanks.

Charlie

[ibizan]

one glass of wine for me ended up in getting the magnum!this is what alcoholism is like to me and the many lessons we hafta learn in life.At end of Wizard of Oz dorothy sez snottily to good witch Glenda "u knew i knew how 2 get back 2 kansas whole time-why didn't u tell me?Glenda laffs and replies"Cuz u never woulda b-lieved me..u had 2 find out 4 urself"Bingo charlie...and bingo glenda....this is how we learn the hard lessons we hafta in life..i do think!

[dark69meat]

Charlie - I love you candor and honesty and would feel guilty lying on the forum.. Me too!
I have to agree with 'ibizan' on this one; you're playing with fire knowing of your past.  And if I had one glass, then it would be 2,3 and so on; not always, but the potential is there.  Then I would lose all interest in the meal itself and get drunk perhaps.  To me, alcohol and food never made any sense.  I like one other the other.  We are alcoholics and total abstinence is probably the answer.  Don't worry about what you said, I rather have folks here honest and wouldn't look at it as failing.  You doing fine and AWARE of the situation; that's the main thing. -dark

[Charlie's girl]

Hi Guys.  Day six and day one all at once.  I guess today starts a new day.  I never thought it would be this hard to completly obstain.  I was not capable of doing it and it was only day five.  At least I only had one glass of wine.  Maybe by next Sat. night, my next dinner date, I will have more will power.
I am trying hard I want you to know that.  We are home for the rest of the weekend so it should make it easier for me.  
Keep me posted

[ibizan]

oh girl ur playing with fire!Sigh!i c many try to do what ur doing with the JUST ONE.........but it will set the BEAST on fire!well i am concerned about ur research project......but alcoholics just can't have just one!Guess u hafta find out for uself!I do respect honesty...and u know we r here 4 u!

[Charlie's girl]

Hi.  I had dinner with my hubby tonight.  It was wonderful.  I have to admit that I did have one glass of red wine and sipped on it slowly throughout the meal.  It was perfect.  I still have no desire to get up tomorrow and get alcohol at all.  If I can do this only when I go out to dinner or on special holidays, I will be just fine.  I'm home, I'm not wanting more.  I'm content.  
My husband and I talked about it and he agrees that one glass is fine only when we are out to dinner.  Once a week.  This sounds normal to me.  I'm the type of person that if I know I need to change then I just do it.  We don't go to clubs or bars.  We just dine out once a week.  
I'm sorry if you are disappointed in me but I'm not the type of person to lie about things.  I would feel terrible posting here and saying that I didn't have one glass.  
I was never a drinker at all until I had my first child.  Then it was a crutch, I was lonely.  I left my job to stay at home with my children and alcohol was my new best friend.  I'm not scared of loosing this friend.  I'm over the drink, but one glass is enjoyable.  I didn't get buzzed, just enjoyed the flavor.  I love to taste different types and learn about where they came from.  
You have helped me come out of a deep depression.  In the past year we learned that my oldest was on the autism spectrum and I wanted to numb myself from the pain.  Now I am seeing clearly and I am done feeling sorry for myself.  
I hope that you respect my honestly and don't hold this against me.  Tomorrow is a new day and my next date out is next Sat. night.  I will be sober in between.  
I need your support for that.  I will be looking forward to hearing from you.

Charlie

[ibizan]

good goin girl..proud of u.....those weren't scare tactics i was using...just plain old reality of what this disease is like....been there hon.....was quite the liquor drinker like u!keep it goin....we're all b-hind u!