Hi. I've been an alcoholic since I was 13. It was depression issues then, its just an addiction now. I don't drink a lot when I do, but I'm just afraid of the time I'm going to stop caring and let go. I'm 18 now, 19 soon, and do my best to stay away from it, but sometimes you just don't care anymore, you know? I've been on and off sober for the last 3 years because of my amazing boyfriend, but when we have problems, I tend to crawl back into the bottle. I usually only drink when I'm really, REALLY angry. Not such a good thing, no, but it calms me down.
I guess I should put out there that addiction runs down my dads side of the family - he used to smoke, his mother and father as well, his mother was an alcoholic, and she came from a disgraced noble family in the UK. Her parents, mother was an alcoholic, father a smoker and heavy gambler. Don't know past there.
Really why I'm here is just to find people who are going through something similar to me. I have a few alcoholic friends, but they don't want to give it up - but then who does when they're 20 or 21 (usually)? I know I have a problem, and I know I can control it if I want to. I'm not looking to go to AA or anything, just someone I can communicate with at random.
I'll be back online later tonight.