Hello Narla and Everyone who has been so supportive.
This is Honey - I forgot my password, so had to create a new account.
I've been busy getting my head together. After my last bottle of wine and thinking that a being in touch with myself was worth a liver, I knew I'd crossed some invisible line. Firstly, I realised I really was completely out of touch with who I was, what I wanted from life and how to achieve it.
Someone said in a message to me that I needed to be "calm" and that really struck a chord. So, after that bottle I decided whether 'calmness' would work for me. I bought Hypnosis CD called "Calm" - which I only listened to twice because it was directed more at people who have trouble controlling their temper. I'm the reverse and hold so many emotions in that I should in fact practice finding my temper a little more - and being honest with how I feel. But, the CD was just the beginning. It helped me I think realise there is no shame calling out for help and looking for it whereever I wanted to. It's nobody's business but mine if I go into a Kooky New Age store and look for healing it whatever form it takes. :) Anyhoo, since then I've had 20 days of sobriety and didn't miss the wine at all. I do have a glass of wine occasionally now but never more than two and never during the week. I've been to restuarants and have spent the night without alcohol and I'm feeling so much better for it. I don't believe I'm out of the woods. But, it's a great feeling to have the binging under control for a change instead of it having me under it's control.