I did not really like alcohol in my teens and twenties. During my thirties I discovered wine coolers and progressed to wine, but never more than three glasses, certainly not on a daily basis. Then followed divorce, nursing school, and I drank wine as a reward after studies over. I think I really escalated after graduation when I got my first job and could afford more and also when my children were gone to college.
I am now remarried to a great guy who does not drink at all. I told him eight years ago when we met that I thought I was an alcoholic. He didn't believe me. Because I am highly functional, never had a DUI, never miss work. During our marriage my drinking has progressed to a bottle and 1 or 2 glasses out of the next bottle a night. Every night. Unless I am with my kids, which I have gone two days max. Or reduced, like 2 glasses.
In the past 12 years I have gone, at the most 15 days sober. Once. On the few occasions that I have gone more than two days, I have no ill effects. Quite the opposite, I feel great, sleep better, etc. Why cant' I stay that way? Well, it's boring. That's my excuse.
My labs are fine, for now.
I consulted with a Psych doc a couple years ago and came away crying because he left me with no hope at all. He said I needed to check myself in for a minimum of six weeks to Rehab. He said if I tried to quit on my own (and I was completely honest with him about my drinking) I would certainly suffer a seizure or worse. Scared the **** out of me, gave up on quitting. Can't risk my nursing license. Can't afford time off that long.
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I am wanting to taper off using Valium and either quit or just drink less. I think I have created my own problem.
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