Sorry, I meant for this to be a general post.
As far as librium goes... it is a pill form of alcohol. Used properly it can be an excellent way to taper off of alcohol without having all the terrible side effects. But you will want to remember that librium shouldn't be used more than a week. Starting out with the highest dose and tapering down, preferably within 3 -4 days
I have to ask myself, "why do I drink?" Is it the taste? No, is it the socialization? not really.... I drank by myself in the end. Do I like the way it makes me feel? YES !! But here is the kicker.... I like the way it USED to make me feel!!!! I tried every trick in order for that drink to make me feel like it once did! I tell myself that when I don't drink, life is so blah. So to make a long sad story short, I realize today that I drank in order to like myself, fit in, belong to....... however, the more I drank.. the worse my life became, and when I quit drinking, ( a hundred times ) life wasn't any better??? At some point I crossed over that imaginary line of psychological addiction into physical addiction, or visa versa
So, If my life is unbearable while drinking, I would assume that stopping drinking would make my life better. But it didn't, It became worse !! Why??????? Because there was a void in my life, and I had been using alcohol for a long time to fill that void... but alcohol became destructive, not only to me but everyone around me. When the alcohol is out of the picture, the void is still there. My answer lies in what do I use to fill that void???
People will find different things that work for them.... some will go to drugs.... "cross addiction" some will try antidepressants, some will become a member of alcoholic anonomous, other will get involved in their church. Some find a way to fill that void with physical fitness. I have tried so many different ways to fill that void, I feel that it is up to the individual to answer that question, as to what is needed in ones life. I hope this makes sense to someone. Good luck
Librium good to ease withdrawal but not good for long term use.Many alcoholics sobering up have problems with depression and anxiety and there are many non- addicitive meds out there that help ease thru the newly sober transition phase.Suggest Campral if u stop....cuts the craving for alcohol if taken as directed and u go to counseling and get in a support group!
Tough story; it drives home the point how addictive alcohol can be. I hope your life is somewhat better now and you have visitation rights occasionally.
I also took librium when I finally knew detox under supervision was needed. It helped but like it was mentioned, not for long term. Lucky you that your husband has stuck by you. I lost my wife of 12 years, my house, job and most painfully my KIDS. She finally had enough and when she left me I left town to go into rehab but she hates what I had become and even now she cant forget the pain I put her through. Good luck to you.
Is the program still working w/librium and no more new bottles you need to pour down the sink?