out of control

[peacetiff]

please look at my day drinking and my journal entries and does any one feel these out of control? Especially since I know I will have an automatic panic attack the next day.
Just looking for support!!!!!
Peacetiff

[jimgreg]

as i know i too was a drunk as you could get and on xanax..cause i had pantic too..but the booze are bringing the anxietys  more and more..i know you dont want to hear this at this point..your going to have to go to detox..when you go there  GO   drunk or they wont take you..belive me i went to detox 5 times the 5th i stopped  and you can too!!!!!!!!!!!!  they wont take you off of the benzos..cuz this is what they use to withdraw you for no less than 72 hrs if your protocol then even admit you for a while..i dont know what benzo that ur on?? but they usually give you Librium witch helps with the shakes..im trying to explain the best that i can to help you..cuz i was just like you are..but i had a script for my  xanax..i only took them after i drank like the next day..then that night be drunk again..but when i went to detox..they gave me xanax to help me..and they saved my life..cuz as long as you try to do this it wont work...for the fact that you have to do both of these the benzo and drinking...and if you do one or the other ones going to give you withdraws..i think ur aware  of this.......mail me if you want to inm private.....BUT THERES NO WAY OUT EXCEPT FROM A DOCKTER..I KNOW YOUR SCARED I WAS TOO..BUT ONCE  YOU DRP THE BOZE THEN YOU CAN KEEP TAKING THE BENZOS....IF YOU ARE TO BE ON THEM...IF NOT THEN THERE GOING TO GET YOU OFF BOTH OF THEM...I BEEN ON BENZOIS  SINE 1993..WAS ON KLONPIN  FOR 13 YRS..THEN XANAX  STILL ON THEM....BUT THE THING  IS I HAVENT DRANK IN 4 YRS.... IM ON THEM  FOR PANTIC ALSO..


YOU CANM DO THIS.....I KNOW YOU WANT HELP OR YOU WOULDNT COME TO US  WRITE!!    GET A FRIEND OR FAMILY MEMBER TO TAKE YOU TO UR LOCAL COMMUNTIY  REHAB OR BEHAVIUR  CENTER..THERE THERE TO HELPO YOU..I KNOW WHAT UR THINKING..BELIVE ME THEY HAVE SEEN ALOT OF CASES  THEY DONT JUDGE YOU OR LABLE YOU....GOD IS ON UR SIDE!!     THANKS JAMES

[shieldon]

You need help from the experts. Undergo treatment and go to a psychiatrist if you must. The first step of breaking free from alcoholism is admitting you need help and submitting to a doctor. This will not be easy, though. But after only a few months, you'll see the development. And you might no longer need your health plan to save your liver.

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[S_E_L_I_N_A]

Hello, I just want to give you some hope.  I am a recovering alcoholic and drug addict.  I had been addicted to heroin.  My sobriety date is 12/26/2008.  I know how you feel the emptiness the hopelessness.  Thinking I am going to just die this way.  AA has saved my life to.  I owe it to AA and the fellowship. I am hear to give you some hope.  I was a heroin addict dying on the streets.  Now I have been sober for a little over a year.  I never thought I could do it.  But if you have the willingness and are sick and tired of feeling the way you feel there is a way out.........................AA.  Like ironpetal09 says first thought wrong.  You need to build a support group by going to meetings and meeting people with sobreity there.  There is hope!

[boogieman]

hello. please be careful mixing the benzos and the alcohol! the combo can kill you. the anxiety is treatable but it's going to take some time. you are suffering from a condition that will lie to you a thousand different ways, but the end result (left untreated), is paying with your freedom, your life or both. find some folks near you who are sober and stay close to them--aa being the best resource for this. if necessary, you may need medical detoxification but whatever it takes, you need to go for it like your life depends on it, because it does. i was right where you are now and it can be done, but it's not easy. but the longer you postpone recovery, the harder it will be to attain. the campral is a great tool--i've been on it for over a year--but you need more than a pill right now. give yourself a break and reach out like you have here. it doesn't matter what you've done or who you've done it to, you are worth saving! take care, gm

[ironpetal09]

Yes it was AA that saved my life.  I had to practice opposites to what my mind was telling me.  If your mind says dont go - then go.  

You've had a slip thats all so get back on the horse called AA and go to meetings.

[Pickles4Me]

I am not an alcoholic but was married to one for many years.  I am not the best qualified to help you but I’ll try my best.

With all due respect, peace, I think you know your drinking is out of control.  If what you need is validation, I’m validating.  “Out of control” is subject to individual tolerance, i.e., what may be out of control for me may not be out of control for you.  However, the mere fact that you asked the question at all tells me you know it is out of control.

Draw on your past experiences with alcohol.  SOMETHING made you get sober 4 years ago and it must have been pretty awful.  Spend some time thinking about how terrible it was back then, then take a deep breath and do what you did 4 years ago to get sober.  If it was AA, get in the car and find a meeting.  If it was rehab, head back to it.

You did it once so you KNOW it can be done.  Yes, you fell, but you’re alive and kicking and that means that somewhere within you is the will to live and be happy.  You deserve that.

And praying never hurts.

--Pickles