Right on my treasured cyber friend and assistant here in the forum!:)!
Hello and welcome to MedHelp.
I completely understand where your coming from, it really becomes a
viscous cycle of self destruction. You find yourself drinking just to feel normal.
I was the same way but I really pushed it as far as anyone dare. I drank for many years until I was diagnosed with cirrhosis and symptoms of decompensation. I stopped drinking immediately and things had been going fine until recently I had a CT scan as a routine check-up since often persons with cirrhosis develop HCC (liver cancer). A very small mass was found that represents HCC or could be nothing more than a vascular malformation. Now we have to watch for any growth. So here I sit day after day until enough time has passed and an MRI can be used for diagnosis. This is scheduled to be ran in two months. Excessive alcohol abuse over a long period of time also can lead to peripheral neuropathy (nerve damage) which I have also been diagnosed.
The list goes on my friend, don't think your the only fool here. Now is the time to do something about it before you make the same mistake I did. I'm 41 years old and there is no un-doing the damage I have caused. The day that doctor told me I had cirrhosis things became really REAL or me. Looking back at quitting drinking actually turned out to be the easiest part of this whole mess I'm in. Find the strength to quit, do it not only for yourself but for your loved ones. Take back your life and make a better future for yourself. Only you can make it happen, and you already took your first big step when you made your post. I wish you all the best!
Randy
Drinking does N O T "fix" "bad guts".
and
"vicious circles" don't work either.
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