vomiting blood

[townie8394]

I'm a 46 yr. old alcoholic. This past month my drinking has gotten progressively worse. This past week, I threw up blood twice. On both occasions I hadn't eaten all day, just drank many beers. There was no stomach pain. I felt acidity in my esophagus, throat? I forced myself to eat afterward, even though I had pain swallowing. I felt fine the next day. I'm scared to death, but I'm still drinking. I know I need help but I'm scared to quit. I've already been in rehab once. Was sober for a few months and fell off the wagon again. In my 20's i was hospitalized for anorexia, bulimia. I've seen numerous therapists, psychiatrist, but I feel like I'm a lost cause. Once one addiction is tamed, the other one surfaces. All I've seen to get out of the help I've gotten is more debt. Do I have to hit bottom (god forbid what that may be) to stop. HELP!

[MJIthewriter]

I wanted to say thinks for your kind note and update. I'm glad you're looking at the links I sent you, especially that one forum. There seem to be some very supportive people. It sounds encouraging that you're getting back into AA.

[ibizan]

My friend workingdog knows what he speaketh!he has went thru a rough stint....and doing well.....at first stopping is hell....but then we repair or we die eventually and the real work is staying stopped!So many giving u good comments specially Louise111!

[MJIthewriter]

I'm glad to hear that you got it before anything serious happened. I'm also glad that you've made a decision. It sounds like things are on their way to getting better, although, like working dog said, it would be good to get help and support from real life people around you.

[working dog]

you better be carefull...i stopped while living alone and had no help..nothing...no drugs to ease the anxiety ..not a thing...i would never tell anyone that has a bad drinking problem to try and stop on their own...you should have someone near you the first couple weeks...i don't know how much you were drinking but if you were drinking a lot for some time i would get to a doctor before the third day...get some help...sounds like you've had it with the drinking and thats great..thats where you have to be to stop...but next thing is get help...i had terrible withdrawals...at about 6 months a lot of my symptoms went away...still had some though..after 9 months i started feeling much better...after a year i felt normal most of the time...but from the third day till the end of the 1st month most nights i wasn't sure if i would make it...i hope you make it townie and never go back..life is so much better without drinking...good luck...billy

[townie8394]

Hello! Went to the doc's, had an endoscopic procedure. Everything is fine, no ulcer, nothing. Made a decision today to stop drinking. Have a plan in place and taking it one day at a time. Hope all is well with you.

[MJIthewriter]

Just wondering how things are going. I haven't heard from you. I hope things are getting better.