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Where to start , I went prison in 2009 i did a voluntary section 6 months later for low mood/Suicidal thoughts..... I got released from hospital by my next to kin writing in and i went to live with my dad, Things are just getting worse and worse, I worry about everything until the point of not being able to leave my house , i get scared alot and sometimes i think that there is a ghost or something in my room so i keep looking round to see if there is anything there, Most of the time i find it hard to get to sleep ... Another thing is that very rarely but it is happening more often now is that i suddenly get abit dizzy and everything seems to be going slow and seems extremely loud , My movements seem faster and it is just extremely horrible , When i am walking does the road and there is cars driving past i feel as though the drivers are laughing at me i feel as though most people are laughing at me to be honest, If someone walks past me in the street i look at them to make sure that there not laughing but for some reason i always think that they were taking the mickey, So i always look back and see if they are looking at me but most of the time there not, One of the worst things is when i go shopping or something and its busy i feel asthough im going to wee myself and even when i dont as i never have before, i see people laughing/ smiling and i put my hands down my pants to check if i have peed myself, I have a girlfriend and i do not have a clue how she copes with me, I get really paronoid accuse her of cheating , I go mad at her when she doesnt do anything wrong, for instance ig she goes to the shop and gets something wrong i get really mad, and also when she holds my hand or like strokes me i dont like it i feel weird and move so she isnt touching me anymore. I was taking 1mg of rispiridrone twice a day and 20 mg of citalopram a day but have stopped taking them because when im on them after a while i feel like oh i dont need them anymore and then a few days later it gets worse so i tried to take them again but i get scared because the anti depressants take long to work and make me feel worse and dont like rispiridrone because it makes me sleepy and i hate it because it takes too long to get use to, I have also tried flluxatine ( Anti depressant and anxiety tablets) but dont take them anymore, Im really getting scared of life and thinking that everyone is out to get me if i had a confrontation with someone i would probably stay in my room and think someones going to kick my door of and get me and get really worried, as i am only 18 i hope someone can help because i cant live my life like this. I know i should go to the doctors but my anxiety stops me from walking there i get scared. The only time i feel safe and everything goes away is when it is dark and raining/storming even if im in bed i get up get ready and go for a walk in the rain it makes me feel better and normal. Please help thankyou for reading.
Like Paxiled just wrote, "apparently" , and that makes me think that he/her thinks i am lieing about feeling that way whall on the medication, and just made me feel down for about 60 seconds , Now im fine,, does that helps explain the paranoia abit ? ( Not saying thats what your getting at Paxiled)
Nurse girl- i have not been oficially diagnosed by a psyciatrist, My moods either high like im looking forward to something and feel good about life of low to the point of wanting to die, I sort of see things that arent there like ill think i just saw a shadow in my roon out of the corner of my eye and be completely sure it was a ghost or something when it wasnt and it scares me not too sure about voices , i dont know if its just myself in my head saying stuff like, Theie looking at you , their laughing at you, " Run" " Run ",I have always been quite a paronoid scared person but kept it to myself, Big changed ? Well i went into care when i was 10 and basically my life fell apart from then on i have lived in around 20-30 placements since then, I remember as far back as 3-4 years after that im not sure, I dont do drugs but sometimes drink ever couple of weeks if i can be bovered, I was seeing a psyciatrist but dont anymore when i was 17 i saw emerge but when i turned 18 i never turned up for the adult mental health so they let me go by sending me a letter, I went to ccp for anxiety for about 3-4 months i found it rubbish didnt help atall,
Well, yes, withdrawal can last four months. It can last a very long time, or a very short time -- depends on the person. But in this case, you were having severe problems before you took the meds and apparently while on the meds and now off the meds, so I, too, refer you to Nursegirl's advice.
Since you've been off for 4 months, then it is no longer withdrawal.
I'd take nursegirls advise and seek treatment. See a therapist who specializes in diagnosis.
The good news, THERE IS HELP FOR YOU. :) YOU CAN GET BETTER. :)
I'd take nursegirls advise and seek treatment. See a therapist who specializes in diagnosis.
The good news, THERE IS HELP FOR YOU. :) YOU CAN GET BETTER. :)
Hello and welcome.
I'm so sorry you're struggling so much. Have you been officially diagnosed by a psychiatrist? If so, what was the diagnosis? This sounds as though it may be more than JUST an anxiety disorder IMO. Do you cycle through very extreme moods, very HIGH and then very LOW? Do you ever hear voices or see/smell/hear things that aren't there? You describe a lot of paranoia, have you always been that way? Have you had a very traumatic event in your life? Any really big changes (moving, loss of job, divorce, baby)? Did anything happen before this all started? When did this start, and how old are you? Do you do any drugs, drink alcohol? Sorry for the barrage of questions, but I'm trying to get a clearer picture of your background.
I agree completely that what you've been doing with your meds is probably making your situation worse. If you feel your current medication regimen isn't working, you need to sit down with your doctor and discuss a new plan of action. Unfortunately, many times with these kinds of meds, it's very much a trial and error process to find a regimen that works. Are you seeing a psychiatrist for the management of your meds? If not, that's a must going forward.
How about therapy? You don't mention that, have you been in therapy? If so, what was your experience, and how long did you go?
Hopefully we can help you at least by pointing you in the right direction so you can start helping yourself a little better. While I'm sure what you've been going through is awful, hopefully with the right professionals and some time, you'll see some big improvements.
We're here for you.
I'm so sorry you're struggling so much. Have you been officially diagnosed by a psychiatrist? If so, what was the diagnosis? This sounds as though it may be more than JUST an anxiety disorder IMO. Do you cycle through very extreme moods, very HIGH and then very LOW? Do you ever hear voices or see/smell/hear things that aren't there? You describe a lot of paranoia, have you always been that way? Have you had a very traumatic event in your life? Any really big changes (moving, loss of job, divorce, baby)? Did anything happen before this all started? When did this start, and how old are you? Do you do any drugs, drink alcohol? Sorry for the barrage of questions, but I'm trying to get a clearer picture of your background.
I agree completely that what you've been doing with your meds is probably making your situation worse. If you feel your current medication regimen isn't working, you need to sit down with your doctor and discuss a new plan of action. Unfortunately, many times with these kinds of meds, it's very much a trial and error process to find a regimen that works. Are you seeing a psychiatrist for the management of your meds? If not, that's a must going forward.
How about therapy? You don't mention that, have you been in therapy? If so, what was your experience, and how long did you go?
Hopefully we can help you at least by pointing you in the right direction so you can start helping yourself a little better. While I'm sure what you've been going through is awful, hopefully with the right professionals and some time, you'll see some big improvements.
We're here for you.
First and foremost. I'm sorry you are going through this. Second, you should never come off your medications unless your doctor knows! And third, it is POSSIBLE you are going through WITHDRAWAL. Withdrawal from these medications can cause a handful of nasty scary symptoms, including physical; dizziness etc. but also not limited to MENTAL symptoms as well. You are supposed to TAPER slowly off your meds, especially if you have taken them for a long time. Even a month is enough to taper.
Most people who feel better while ON their meds, feel they don't need them anymore, so they quit taking them. This is a very common thing.
My advise. CALL YOUR DR. Make an appointment and talk about options, either going back on your meds, therapy, a mix of both. Or slowly tapering.
Good luck! Hang in there!
Most people who feel better while ON their meds, feel they don't need them anymore, so they quit taking them. This is a very common thing.
My advise. CALL YOUR DR. Make an appointment and talk about options, either going back on your meds, therapy, a mix of both. Or slowly tapering.
Good luck! Hang in there!
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