PLEASE HELP! Can't handle it anymore

[Duckths]

So my doctor has diagnosed me with anxiety and depression. The only thing is he hasn't sent me to have bloods. He's just checked my heart and lungs , blood pressure which was perfect and he's felt my stomach everything was good. I'm on loxamine 10mg a day and I've got Betta blockers and lorazepam to calm me down. It's just I feel so un real. Like I'm not a real person. I can't shake that symptom . And I fear it's something way worse . I get all shaky and hot because I think about how un real I feel. Like for example I look at my partner and wonder if he's really my partner . Same thing with my parents . I work shift work and I haven't been in a month and tonight is my first night back and I don't know if I can do it

[mele48]

I agree with evans and Paxiled.  This is such a tough battle.  It truly does get better!  Get the blood tests to rule out anything else.  I highly recommend getting a psychologist/therapist.  Mine has been invaluable to me on this journey.  

The best advice I can give you is to be kind to yourself.  For me, that's crawling in my apartment and being alone with Netflix and just vegetating.  Make sure you're eating as well as you can.  Drink plenty of fluids.  Stay in touch with your doctor.  Reach out to loved ones you trust to be there for you.  

Know that we're all in this battle on this community page; you are NOT alone.  Everything you're describing, one of us is or has experienced.  Just take things one minute at a time!

[Duckths]

I have a councillor, he's given me a mindfulness app for my phone . Meditation it's pretty good. I just hate the un real feeling . Every other symptom I've had has vanished and I'm left with the most horrible one. It SUCKS

[Paxiled]

Get that blood test.  It will rule out, or at least attempt to rule out, any number of hard to find problems such as thyroid problems, sugar imbalances, Ciliac Disease, etc. that can cause anxiety and depression.  

[Duckths]

Yeah the only thing that scares me is the results coming back with like cancer or brain tumour or something it's horrible

[evansm1]

I really feel for you. I understand the hopeless, panic and desperation that you are no doubt experiencing. I wish I had a miracle answer for you. It can be a dark and ****** road and the only relief I get is a stilnox (Zolpidem) (ambien) and a cuddle from my wife at night. I can only suggest that you keep trying to find something that works for you. Don't give up. Never give up looking for an answer. Often the symptoms will subside during your search. At the moment I'm doing a mindspot clinic course that the government here in Australia pays for. Also I'm reading books such as the power of now by Eckhart Tolle and watching youtube videos by the anxiety guy. It's important to explore every avenue and hopefully you will find something that resonates with you. I know it's overwhelming and your concentration levels might be at an all time low but just do what you can do. I've had to read a page of a book about twenty times before my brain will allow the information in.
I hope that something  that I have written will help you find a way.  

[Duckths]

Thank you so much. I love laying in bed having a cuddle with my partner . He's my safe zone . He's so supportive and amazing with me. And so accepting about me not wanting to "sleep" with him because of course the medication has made me have zero sex drive at all. I hate been alone but he has to go to work. I've tried so many things . The head fog and the dizziness is the only symptom I have left everything else has gone . I wish I could wake up been the old me again!!

[AnxiousNoMore]

There is no blood test for anx or depression, so not sure what you are expecting from that. Unfortunately there is no test for those so it is up to the person suffering and a professional who analyzes your discussion to figure if you   have those conditions.
Are you in therapy to find why you feel nothing is real,, anx and dep?

[Duckths]

I'm more meaning I haven't had bloods to find out weather there is anything serious wrong with me , cause I think there is . And yeah I've been going to councelling . It's a horrible feeling . Depersonalisation it's just a symptom of anxiety