Hi everyone! I'm a 24 years old male, which had a very severe OCD (intrusive thoughts) in the past, controlled very well recently by self-medicating with weed (indica, sativa did the opposite). Iv'e smoked socially every night for like 2 months, and felt awsome! like all of my childhood tics and OCD tendencies was cured and under control. Iv'e became more active and light-headed, laughed more and was less inside my head.
Unfortounately, I started using amphetamines (adderall, vyvanse) to study in my new university. I felt too lazy and unmotivated without it. Sometimes it helped, but eventually I felt that it triggered back my OCD gradually. Especially when I was alone, and stressed (about homework etc..) it made me think too much and self-observe, and I felt my symptoms coming back hard-time. Also I reduced the weed recently (because of the study) so I guess it's also a trigger.
In conclusion, Iv'e had my obsessions under control using weed for awhile, and stress + amphetamines triggered all back to me.
Anyway, I decided to go see a psychiatrist, as I felt too stressed out and unfunctional. He started me with Clomipramine 25mg for 4 days, then 75mg SR.
I'm 1 week on (75mg) and except very noticable side-effects (eye wiggles like on MDMA, yawnings, insomnia and sexual dysfunction) I still don't feel any good results, actually I think I feel more anxious during this time.
Iv'e heard it's common that the medication will start having good effects only after several weeks, so I'm still optimistic.
However, as i'm ADHD and cannot focus without amphetamines, and also still in a high-anxiety state, I was wondering if I can help myself until the Clomipramine starts working.
I know that both weed and amphetamines is safe to combine with TCA's, but my actual questions are:
*Is smoking weed now to ease the initial medication anxiety, can interfere with it's onset? I mean, can smoking weed before Clomipramine kicked-in, is able to make it uneffective, or delay the onset? Because I'm really trying to prevent myself from smoking now, but it's so difficult. Maybe I'm preventing myself for no reason?... :)
*Same question about amphetamines: can I try using them already for studying? or they can mess with the medication onset? I really need them to study and right now i'm struggling to study without them, which is almost impossible (too lazy, brain fogged etc...).
(I know the risk of becoming again more obsessive from amphetamines, actually that's the main reason I wanted to start a long-term medication. I hoped that Clomipramine will prevent amphetamines from making me more obsessed and will work well together. But I still hurry to start using amphetamines again as I cannot function in the study now without them..)
Thanks a lot for everyone, I hope that someone have the right answers for me. =]