Please tell me this will end and it's just my anxiety.

[christineyvette]

Since Saturday when I had two random bouts of loose stool and started to worry it was cancer or colitis or I was sick with the stomach flu (worst fear is throwing up) my anxiety is NOT letting up. I've even stopped eating (not completely but eating sandwiches and bread and I had some pasta tonight) because I didn't want to have to go to the bathroom and worry again. I feel completely detached from everything and everyone. I've been in my room sleeping in till 9pm and not talking to anyone in my family (they know not to disturb me when my anxiety/depression is high, I haven't seen my dad in days!) I just locked myself in my room cause my anxiety is so high. Is it normal to feel like this? I started cutting myself again sunday and I feel terrible about it. I just feel so low. I'm scared this isn't anxiety and it's like a brain tumor or brain cancer (I have TERRIBLE health anxiety) my anxiety is bad I get a lump in my throat so I can't eat (besides thinking I'll have to go to the bathroom again and it will be loose) im scared to go again cause the past three times I went it was loose and if it is again than something is wrong with my colon, cancer ect. Every little rumble of my stomach or gurgle sends my anxiety into overdrive. I have such bad derealization. I've felt this before but still my anxiety brain is saying Theyres something seriously wrong and then my rational mind says that it's just anxiety and it will pass. I HATE this. I don't want to cut myself again even though it helps because it scares my parents. I just want to know this is all anxiety and my mind. I'm just tired and I want to feel normal again. Help please.

[cpanicdisorder]

whenever I have panic or anxiety I have loose stools and throw up - these are normal fight or flight symptoms that may be caused by an anxiety or panic disorder.  You will NOT sound stupid.  You will sound like every one else who suffers from anxiety - tell a therapist and a doctor - you don't have to suffer alone and they can help it get better if not stop all together after a good long time with good treatment.  You are NOT alone and your symptoms are NORMAL.

[christineyvette]

That's the problem though, I haven't told my phychiatrist about my fears of going to the bathroom or getting sick because how stupid would I sound?! I'd be embarrassed to say anything about my fear of having bowel movements and getting sick. I feel like she would think I was crazy! I've been keeping this from her since I starting seeing her a year and a half ago. There's embarrassing things in detail and I'm afraid to come public.

[nursegirl6572]

Sweetie, your anxiety is off the charts, and you're not coping at all.  You need to seek professional help, and YES, you need to talk to your parents and let them know what's going on.  Hiding in your bedroom isn't the answer.  If anything you need to surround yourself MORE during these rough times, not less.

Do you have a therapist?  If so, call him/her and let them know what's going on...you need an urgent appt.  If you don't have one, you need to get one ASAP....if that's the case, call your doctor and get an urgent appt.  No more messing with this and trying to manage it yourself....because you're not coping at all hon.

Let us know what the therapist/doc said.