Ah, sweetie, so very sorry to hear that you are going through this tough time! Panic attacks legitimately feel horrible. I feel for you. They most often do require treatment. Have you ever worked with a psychiatrist? If panic attacks and anxiety cause you to not participate in things you need to or want to in life, it is definitely requiring next level care. I would say that a psychiatrist is really important here. Do you or have you taken any medication? That is sometimes, depending on what you and your doctor decide, needed in order to manage panic attacks and anxiety. Most doctors do want to rule out any other issues if someone has a panic attack health wise. If that has been done, then it's time to move to the next phase. Therapists and talk therapy really help with ongoing management of panic. Or at least they can. Cognitive Behavior therapy and exposure therapy can be very effective. But this is ongoing. A walk in clinic is a good start but a therapist you see on a regular basis may be necessary. They can help you with coping mechanisms during a panic attack, identifying triggers, working through it and general anxiety. Life style changes help as well such as eating right, getting exercise and plenty of rest, doing things like yoga, meditation, deep breathing, etc. https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/panic-attacks/diagnosis-treatment/drc-20376027
What you may be experiencing is something called derealization and depersonalization. Here is an excellent journal by a good medhelp friend of mine. https://
www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/11569/Derealization-and-Depersonalization-VERY-common-anxiety-effectsplease-read read though that and see what you think. hugs