God thank you

[Mattstessestoomuch]

Thank you for being here. I have lost so much to anxiety. I have severe attacks. Everything hurts. Pains in my head back neck arm ears ringing etc you know the drill. It's even driven a wedge between my girlfriend and I. She doesn't get it. She's a very strong woman. And I feel like such a wimp dealing with my thoughts.
But what I have done besides find you guys. I take juice plus pills. They help most of the time. And some meds including the evil Xanax. I had to quit my job (over the road trucker) and started my new job today. After a few months off I had to get out of the house. I'm happy to say today I only had a few episodes that I managed well. I succeded today.
That's what I tell myself. I can't change what's going to happen. I can only live for the moment. I'm sick of living in fear of myself. I want my life back. Thanks again for you all and keep hope. Every second you have survived I promise the next second you will. Stay strong.