I refuse to eat.

[christineyvette]

Look at my earlier post to see whats going on. I refuse to eat anything besides bland foods because I can't eat anything else without almost a half hour later leaving me to have to go to the bathroom and have a loose stool. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. This never used to be my problem. Im hungry and I want to eat a hotdog but I cant cause its just going to lead me to the bathroom. I eat a peanut butter sandwich and im fine I DONT GET IT. This has been going on for a week. All I think about is pooping, scared of throwing up, paying attention to every gurgle in my stomach. Bascially all im thinking about is going to the bathroom. I see people on tv and wonder when they go and what they poop. IS THIS JUST MY ANXIETY? or is something seriously wrong with me. I'm losing it.

[christineyvette]

Thank you.

[Paxiled]

I don't understand, you eat white bread, not wheat.  White flour is made of wheat with all the nutrients and fiber taken away.  It would be even worse of a wheat problem, and also a sugar problem since it would metabolize very quickly to sugar as it's a simple carb.  Going to the bathroom twice a week is also not right.  You have obvious digestive problems, but the reason for them can be from so many different causes, including anxiety.  I'd think it wouldn't hurt for you to see a holistic nutritionist just to see if your diet has caught up to you, and to learn about proper eating for someone with digestive problems.  You also might want to learn about natural digestive remedies, such as digestive enzymes, DGL, aloe juice, etc., because medication used regularly tends to cause rebound problems and exacerbate the situation.  Good luck.

[christineyvette]

I haven't gone to the doctors....yet. Two reasons. What if I have to go when im there? What if my anxiety gets so bad I have a terrible panic attack?
I'm considering making a appointment.

I've been looking up IBS (I do have it my doctor diagnosed me with it 2 years ago) I got a full blood work up a few months ago and everything was normal. I looked up gut to brain stuff and apparently so much of you think in your head causes you to go. The only problem is I don't know if its anxiety or something serious and thats what makes me the most anxious. I eat white bread not wheat and as far as im concerned I have no food allergies (only to sugars which I cant digest properly) I also suffer from GERD but all this came on suddenly last weekend. It's been a week. I normally go to the bathroom say, twice a week and until last weekend its been more. My anxiety is just THROUGH the roof. I can't sleep until I know I wont have to go to the bathroom which leaves me going to bed at 7/8/9 sometimes 10am and waking at 9/10 pm. I have been self harming due to the anxiety. My anxiety gets so bad that my throat starts to feel swollen and closed up and I gag. THEN I think that thats part of this stool thing then I think its something serious like bowel cancer ect. I want to just eat normal food again and go back to normal but I can't shake the thoughts and the anxiety. Its tiring. I'm becoming depressed.

[Paxiled]

We have to assume, since you don't mention, whether you've seen a doctor or not to see if something is wrong, but peanut butter I would think wouldn't be on anyone's bland diet and a hot dog wouldn't be on anyone's approved diet, so it just seems that for right now you're reacting oddly and we don't know why.  There are so many things it could be -- food intolerances (given your proclivity for sandwiches wheat comes to mind), allergies, celiac, anxiety, medication, irritable bowel (which just means for some reason there's inflammation going on), I mean, just so many things it could be.