Need Advice

[SidewaySuns]

Hi all,

I hope this is the correct section of the forum to post this in as it ties in with anxiety. I need advice for how to deal with my depression and anxiety.

Long story short, my mother passed away over a month ago, suddenly and without warning. Ever since then, I've gone through incredible amounts of anxiety which mainly, and unfortunately, has manifested itself as health anxiety.

I've been on Celexa for a little over 2 weeks and started taking 20 mg a little less than a week ago. I take it in the morning, but feel more relaxation and calm in the evening which I'm hoping will eventually balance me out completely so I feel like less of a mess in the morning.

Anyway, I just started seeing a councilor where we talked about how being in my house makes me depressed - tired, no motivation, randomly start crying etc.

The week before, I was on vacation with my boyfriend in a nice beach house to which I enjoyed immensely. I started out anxious in the beginning, but I slowly became more relaxed and in the very end, I felt entirely like myself. I had no physical symptoms, nothing on my mind (for the most part) and I felt full of energy.

He dropped me off that night and I felt fine. I slept through the night which is something that doesn't happen too often anymore. The next day, I was a wreck. I felt absolutely miserable. The next two days after that, I felt the same way.

When I told my councilor about this, he suggested that I spend more time up there at my boyfriend's house. That, for me, feels easier said than done. I have three younger siblings and a dad who works five days of the week. He did make the point that they don't directly rely on me - my sisters do their own things during the day. I can't drive so I can't take them anywhere (19 and no licence, oh goodness). When my dad comes home, we have dinner and then we go off and do our own things. We're very independent in that sense. But I just couldn't shake the feeling that I'd be abandoning them. My councilor tried telling me to do what gives me the most relief, and being with my boyfriend is what does the trick.
He can't stay with me because he works during the week.

When I told my dad about this, he got upset, paced around and muttered "I don't know" and walked away from me. This just made me feel much worse about the whole thing.

My thought was to spend more time with him until my Celexa fully kicks in and then slowly "ween" myself away so that I feel more comfortable when I come home.

Is that what's best for me? My dad has been supportive of what I need to do in order to feel better, but I feel like I backed him into a corner this time. Any advice is welcome.

[kalie1979]

Im so sorry about ur mother..  Your still mourning for her. I think you need to do whatever makes You happy. Because you will be able to see your dad and siblings, and you could do more if you felt better. It sounds like your bf comforts you. So if you feel better with him then I think you should go. Everything will fall into place. I have not been through that yet. But you need to take care of yourself, so do what make you happy.  Good Luck

Kalie

[TheLightSeeker]

Hey SidewaySuns.
So sorry for the passing of your mother. Her sudden departure is very difficult to come
in terms with, for the whole family, I can just imagine.
However, if this is in anyway comforting to know, she's in a better place.
It is not just my opinion. I know some things.
As this is not the appropriate section of the forum, for this, should you want to exchange more, regarding afterlife and Spirit world, please post at the Spirituality section of this forum or message me directly.
Yes this is indeed the section regarding your Anxiety, Depression, medications and such.
The medication you are on is from the family of a class of drugs called selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors. It is important to discuss this further with your prescribing doctor
and express your desire to take this medicine on a temporary transitional basis,
if possible. The last thing you want is to create a life long dependency on medications
with their possible side effects.

Since your situation seems to be event specific,  effective counselling and therapy would make a big difference. You could possibly resume your life in a more functional manner, having gone through all the stages of grieving( the loss of your mom),
and accepting life as it is.  There's a trauma deep inside that is causing you these symptoms (not disease or condition). A good facilitator is able to help you process this
efficiently and have flow through and out of your body.

Being with your boyfriend helps you forget, but that does not go deep enough.
Medications address the symptoms but will not heal your trauma. The only positive expectation would be that "time" will heal you. (Of course it is not time but our own
internal processes that help us heal us over time!)
And as far as your dad is concerned, he's going through a very difficult time in his
life as well. Do not take anything personally. He still loves you the same, but is just very overwhelmed.

I'm familiar with Energy Psychotherapy -that is very effective- and if you need to know more - please post at the Alternative Therapies section or message me directly.

Please do your own research, check with your councilor and doctor- as I am not a medical
doctor- before making any decisions about your health.
Blessings to you and your family.
Nikodicreta

  

[Shadowfluffy6]

there's a warning for Celexa for heart attacks and strokes