Dont know how much longer i can take it

[Hurtingbad187]

therapist since childhood, tons of different meds, bad doctors, horrible chilhood, hate people, anxeity cosumes my life, cant go certain places, all alone stating to lose it.. I know there are a lot of good doctors out there, and ive met 89% of the bad ones that dont care and even hung up on me when she sadi a few weeks ago she was nervous i was gona hurt myself... IDK IDK

[Hurtingbad187]

Ive seen doctots my whole life, and i swear there was only 1 good one, but after a year he was ready to retire, he worked out of his houes the last 2 years and he didnt care anymore... A doctor hung up on me during a emergency, she lost my chart 2 times, uo'd and down my dose on accident on numerous accounts, i lost dramatic amount of wait after she added the prozac which  told her it use to make me sick... After 3 days of a d d meds that i never had a dose longger then a week or 2 on vvyanse,prozac, and busprione its a weak anxiety med, i didnt sleep for 3 straight days starting to see things, had crazy thoughts and ended up in the ER on a IV for couple hours... I called the doc the day i got home and told secretary to please please make sure she gets this nessage its really important from a bad reaction to meds and last week when i saw she looked through her book for about 3seconds and said she never got any messages, she picked p the phone for the 1st time ever and immediatly gave me a attitude and i was still nice but starting asking her what should i do and her exact words were IDK I DONT KNOW WHAT TO TELL YOU, I SAID R U KIDDIN YOUR MY DOC, AND THEN SHE STARTING TO TRY N RUSH ME OFF THE PHONE AND I GOT MAD AND WAS LIKE IM HURTING SO BAD AND SHE HUNG UP, I CALLED THE ORGINAL GIRL WHO SEEMED LIKE SHE REALLY CARED CUZ SHE THOUGHT I WAS GONA HURT MYSELF AT 1 POINT, AND I NEVER GOT A CALL BACK FROM HER EITHER...MY LIFE IS POINTLESS, NO1 CARES, HELPS, IF SUMTHIG WORKS THEY DONT GIVE IT TO U, IVE FCKING HAD IT

[Hurtingbad187]

Damn i just wrote sooooooooooo frigin much and it frigin froze...The doctor hung up on me and left me in withdrawls frmo the a d d meds and that was the tio of he ice berg....Please if any1 can talk, i cant type all this..I just need some1 to boune icdeas off of, i have no1 to help me, no1....I have free long distance on my cell, So if any1 can take 15min outta there life to help sum1 who spends is whole life worrying and heling others more then himself, not pity statment just a dead fact... I need help when u hear what happened, im not doing good

[29sillygirl]

Hi,
It is overwhelming at times to suffer anxiety and have had little or no relief from meds ...and doctors you have trouble communicating with...

But...as edgyboy has said...there are caring professionals..really there are.

We are here if you want to talk.  In fact I highly recommend posting when you feel like it.  Helps to know there are others who've been where you are....you are not alone.

Best...

[edgyboy]

There are caring doctors and people out there willing to help you. Hang in there and find these people. There are many people on this forum willing to listen to you too.

God Bless