Hiv Phobia!! Im so lost!! :(

[redwing0000]

I cant take this anymore!!!!! This HIV phobea has taken over me!!!! I just want my life backI recieved oral sex from this girl back in mid Sept. Shes a dancer btw. I myself didnt think it was a risk, on aidsmeds.com they backed up my assessment, however my doctor said i was at risk. So because of what he said, i wanted to test anyway just for a piece of mind.    I was tested at 9 weeks past incident, results were negative. So today it would be 11 weeks past, i went to the health department and they didnt understand why im getting tested again considering i did it 2 weeks ago.. I told the nurse i was aware that 12-13 weeks is a conclusive result and i wanted to get tested today because i feel really anixious. However she told me that "well 3 months is the window for some people, but to be absoultly sure,  its 6 months" So then she tells me to come back in Febuary!! Now look, im in agreement with everyone here, 3 months is the window and i understand 6 is for only rare cases like getting treatment for cancer and so on. Its like im not allowed to be tested! O and the nurse did say i was at risk, i told her about the oral thing.. Im not fretting on it, just saying... thats all. Im so ferusterated at the departments being so conservative regarding the window peirod. Even my G.P says 6 months.... Where the heck can i find a place that uses up to date info and will test me? And the wierd thing is.. I was a different health department branch 2 weeks ago and they said 3 months is the window. Why im i getting mixed info is beyond me. Is there anything i show to my doctor or the health department that 3 months is the window so i can test and put this behind me?

[tylrr_lloyd]

Hey,
I don't know much about these conditions and I'm new to this whole site, I'm only starting to get used to anxiety, but I know what you are going through... Its fear of the unknown and it's terrible.
I think that some of your worry is for naught.. How do I explain this, I think a lot of the paranoia/panic in anxiety is subconscious, and subconsciously if you had HIV, your body would know, and you wouldn't really be worrying about the possibility of having it, you'd know you had it, but seeing as its all speculation at this point, so that could be your body/anxiety's way of saying you don't?
I often find myself obsessively worrying about the things I later find are fine.
Hope this helps "calm the beast" as it were, take care,
- ty

[LionHeart1]

Based on your post, you do NOT have HIV.

You better treat your anxiety.