Scary thoughts, alcohol, parties but no symptoms? what to do?

[mario_silent]

Hi everyone. Before anything some info about me. I've been having anxiety for about 4 months, been on some alternative therapies and finally tried panicyl, a natural alternative to antidepressants. My biggest problem was nausea which has really reduced since taking panicyl and now I'm in a better stage, my symptoms have really lowered, but I still have those irrational fears that were born with the anxiety and I never had before. For example, I'm often scared of seeing someone who is sick or that I might see someone vomit and become traumatized. Idk why but somehow nausea and people feeling sick or illl that might through up really put me on edge, whis is why I'm now very scared of going to parties since you see a lot of people feeling that way and  I'm also afraid of alcohol because I feel like if I drink even a little I will feel dizzy, sick and finally vomiting but I've drunk recently just a bit and felt good, but somehow the irrational fear is there, what can I do??? I'm seeing a therapyst, I take drops of Bach flowers, homeopathic remedies (Calcarea carbonica 200ch and natrum muriaticum 30ch). The thing is I wanna be like my old self, I liked parties, I never had fear of vomiting (never had problems with that, I don't drink that much either) and now I'm afraid of going to social gatherings and events, I got my prom coming soon, a party before that, a friend's graduation and I'm afraid of those thoughts, I wanna have a good time everywhere and I don't know how to deal with them, I know it's up to me but I wish that fear could go away, I tried to face it drinking some alcohol and proving I wouldn't feel sick but I still have those thoughts.. anyone felt like this before? any ideas? please :( I'm pretty worried

SOrry about the long post hehe I had so much to tell

[mario_silent]

Hi Angeleyes, yeah She got through to me about the drinking, I think I'll avoid it for longer. and about what you are focusing on... I really can't remember going through an experience that may have caused a trauma, these thoughts never scared me until recently; even when I started having anxiety I was scared of nausea since it was my biggest symptom but I was never terrified by it; it was until recently that it became a bigger fear and now it seems that If I see someone feeling sick I get nervous I might feel that way too; and the problem is that at times when I get more anxious it's like I start looking around to find someone who is feeling that way... it's very irrational and I've told the doctor but we haven't found the root... I wish I could just forget all about this and live like I used to, even more now that holidays are coming and I wanna enjoy them with my family like always. BTW thanks for the answer and hope you're doing great! Happy holidays in advance hehe

[Angeleyes1015]

Hi. I hope Dory13 got thru to you about drinking so I'm going to focus on something else. Your thoughts-fears are focused on seeing someone get sick and vomit and causing you to do the same. Have you had some tramatic experience in your life? That could could bring theses fears to your mind. I t dosen't have to be something that happened to you or a family member.Just something that you saw know about. You  don't have to answer this I just wanted to give you another way to look at this it maynit be as weird as you think and can be dealt with.

[mario_silent]

Thanks for the answer dory. Well I asked the guy who sells the product if I could drink and said there was no problem at all. And you know? the weird thing is that some stages before when I had anxiety at the top, I often felt like going out and have a beer or something with friends when I was having a good day; some other days I didn't feel like it but it was normal. Now I got to another stage like I said where I fear it, it's so weird to me, and the worst is that I can't focus on other things becasue somehow now that I analyze it, alcohol is everywhere and parties and reunions etc. I'm 22 and never had drinking problems, I'm an occasional so that's what makes me wonder why am I having these weird thoughts if alcohol never hurt me or anything. I work out like 5 times a week. Thanks a lot for the answer and I'll try to focus more on other things, I just hope it's a phase and it gets old soon enough :)

[dory13]

IMO you shouldn't be drinking alcohol. It can add to the irrational thoughts and fears. It sounds like you are young since you mentioned prom, my advice would be to stay away from the alcohol and you will avoid a lot of problems. This is coming from someone who started drinking young, (age 15) I am now 44 and did not realize until recently how much alcohol affects me. Even moderate drinking.
Is it possible your subconcious is trying to tell you that alcohol makes things worse ?and maybe that's one of the reasons for your fears and thoughts. It's not a good idea to drink alcohol while taking something for anxiety, even if it's "natural".
Also, this could be a phase. If you are facing changes in your life it can be scary. You'll be okay. Try to focus on some things besides parties, that you are interested in.