I do not believe at all that you abused your friend. A child of seven or eight years old that’s just natural curiosity, and quite silly to be honest. But as far as abuse, I just don’t see that. The fact that you have been beating yourself up over it is very sad to me. I suggest you reach out to a counselor and let them help you work this out because I do not believe that you did anything inherently wrong. Please let us know how things go once you have reached out for help. You can speak with a counselor online if you prefer not to do it in person. I highly recommend you take this step to relieve yourself of your fear and anxiety over some thing that happened so very long ago.
Dear One, you did nothing creepy or abusive or harmful. What happened in that moment as a child was incredibly benign. Yes, your anxiety is blowing this way out of proportion. Do not waste anymore time beating yourself up for some false sense that you committed a "wrong."
Happens to me when i get depressed i can start obsessing over something that happened eons ago.
I rationally know it's not helpful, but emotionally it seems like a very important event i need rectified.
I just saw a video which suggests it's like a smoke detector giving a false alarm. Not useful; however, we evolved to tollerate false alarms, because the one time there really is a fire, it's so important to have that alarm go off. We'd rather have false alarms than occasionally miss one real alarm that saves our life.
That Dr's opinion was it's normal to have false alarms, to brood over something we know is useless to obsess over. The emotion is a false alarm. It's a real alarm, but we recognize it as false and unhelpful. Yet it happens because of the benefit we gain from that one time it's a real alarm that saves us.
Youtube video: "Why hasn't evolution eliminated mental disorders?"