First, if you're 43 you're definitely not from a generation that doesn't talk about problems -- you're from one that obsesses over them. Now, I'm 63, and I can tell you, things have changed a ton since I was young and most working class people didn't believe in mental illness at all. Now, everyone seemingly is being diagnosed with it in an over-reaction, but in your case, it sounds like you're anxious and depressed. The best thing to do to start is to see a psychologist and see what they think is going on. Also, realize that stress affects everyone if they let it and it doesn't if they don't. People don't react the same. You have to deal with how you're reacting and figure out how to work past it. And again, it's possible you live somewhere where the culture is still lost in the past but I'm guessing there are many people around you who have similar problems and are quite willing to talk about them. One last thing -- when you use drugs a lot you're high a lot, and when you stop, you're not. Learning to find the same level of pleasure now that you're not stoned can be hard for awhile until you learn how to access the feelings you had when you were stoned without being stoned. One aid to this is meditation. But you're going to have to help yourself, and besides therapy I'd also recommend regular exercise, if for nothing else than to get you away from the house and burning off some of that gloom.